Annihilate

Wherever he may walk, everything burns
A bringer of death, pain, hatred and strife
He is doomed to loneliness in this life
As for onlookers, away their heads turn
he walks into town with purposeful stride
Voices of abuse ring out like a bell
And as he plots their casting into hell
They make permanent scars upon his pride
But he never wanted it in this way
He was himself but not given a chance
Thus he is dislikeable at first glance
But his thirst for vengeance won’t go away

They isolate and abuse him each day
But he will destroy them and make them pay


13th December 2000

Drinking Binge

Step into my room, step into my world
Come one! Come all! Don’t be shy! Come on in!
Give me your sweet lips and give me my sin
Let’s make the inevitable chaos unfurl
Caught with my pants down with a stupid grin
As I run my fingers through your soft hair
If I wake up dead I really don’t care
You are a prize I’m determined to win
You just don’t have a clue, don’t you, you ditz
So wear that smile but not a loaded gun
Come right on in and we will have some fun
And all the while our brains fall to bits

Now we both have one way tickets to hell
But who cares when everything is swell?


11th December 2000

Crucifixion

Nothing will ever again be the same
None but I know of the pain inside
And from the rest of the world I will hide
As I can’t bring myself to face the shame
I scream my lungs out but without a sound
While I sit in an empty room friendless
And gone is my last chance of happiness
All is lost, everything has turned around
One careless whisper, one simple blunder
They won’t listen, no matter what I do
They persecuted me for being true
Leaving my world lost and torn asunder

I have been filled with deception and lies
There’s little left to do except close my eyes


10th December 2000

Wrath

From here on, I leaving you right now
I want out of the crap you put me through
There’s little left for me to stay or do
So get out of my life you stupid cow
When the whole thing was over I felt used
I cared about you but you didn’t for me
You just stood around while I got abused
Anything you say now is just too late
You filled me up with corruption and lies
And you went to betray me in my eyes
It’s ironic you embraced what you hate

And may I add that I’m not your doll
I don’t want to see you again you moll


10th December 2000

Challenge to a Rival

I could write a better story then you!
I’m talking to you Mister John Marsden!
I must read your books? Who says I have to?
Just wait ‘til you step into my garden!
I must read your Tomorrow/War books, right?
Who says I have to read the whole saga?
I keep the entire saga from my sight!
I will not be sucked in like a loser!
I can and I will top anything you do!
My work can keep people awake at night!
Indeed, I can write better stuff then you!
My work can too keep people up in fright!

I won’t listen to the words of a sap
And I know that my work can top your crap


10th December 2000

Message to an Ex-Girlfriend

So it’s come to this. This is where it ends
Your actions were wrong to leave me this way
Thus, farcical is your idea to be friends
You know, I would’ve done anything so you’d stay
We are alike in what we think and do
But as you don’t listen I talk to walls
My affection was me saying I loved you
I believe you don’t care about me at all
You told me you’ve had a terrible past
I would’ve made things better. Couldn’t you see
I did everything I could to make it last
But sadly you didn’t do the same for me

Despite all my affection you have flown
Yet I don’t deserve to be so alone


10th November 2000

One Man can start an Avalanche with the Casting of a Pepple

She came into my life when I was blue
And she gave me happiness and sunshine
After waiting for so long this was a sign
My heart simply melted when she said “I love you”
Suddenly walls fell and I saw the sun
With her there was so much to do and see
And those crap love songs now made sense to me
Make no mistake, she was the number one
She understood whatever I would say
In my paintings and poetry she’d appear
I felt warm and comfort when she was near
She made me happy every singe day

Yes, things were going great in this romance
Then along the twat in poofter pants


9th November 2000

Remembrance

Remember when you said you loved me?
Do you remember what we did that night?
Do you remember when we felt so free?
Remember when we held each other so tight?
Ah yes. I do recall it very well
We walked under a starry starry night
And then into each other’s arms we fell
And then we kissed in the pale moonlight
On that night we said we loved each other
We were both seduced by the other’s charms
And we had found love for one another
As we captured the other in our arms

I do recall our date with destiny
There we forged a future for you and me


2nd September 2000

Match Made in Heaven

You are a hentai - perverted and proud
I'm reserved in this mortal coil
You are young hyperactive and quite loud
But I am quiet and yet quite loyal
You're in High School and four years my younger
But I am an adult and in Uni
A river divides us. A Heart's hunger
For a grown man and a female looney
You are a dominatrix I am half mad
I keep throwing life lines - You remain true
You seem to be carefree but I am sad
A match made in heaven? I think so too

We are mismatched but we stay together
And so, for that, I will love you forever


2nd September 2000

I think I'm in love

It has begun: the world has stopped turning
Many a cold shiver runs down my spine
The fires in my heart have begun burning
All has turned upside down. It is a sign
A tsunami of sweat runs from my hands
Everything crumbles. The bubble has been burst
Images disintegrate into sands
So I hang on and prepare for the worst
Boredom has consumed me in this darkness
But I don’t give a rat’s arse about you
It just happened this afternoon, this mess
And it would appear my feelings are true

I think I’m in love. That must be it
But boy is it making me fell like shit


This edition: 30th July 2000

Love

I love you and no one else besides you
All your personality and your charm
If you take my hand I will get you through
I will make sure you do not come to harm
How I would love to kiss and touch your face
I do not care what other people say
O, the thought of us in intimate embrace
I wish you were here with me today
I don’t care if you’re mean. Just come with me
Just a day with you is eternal bliss
If you really love me then you will see
I love you too - Said with a lover’s kiss

I really so passionately love you
I will never break your heart - That is true


First version: 17th October 1998
This edition: 30th July 2000

Alexandra

So many doors but only one offers hope
Many doors are opened but not the one true
Never-ending journey. One I can’t cope
I open up a door and then you stepped through
At long last my eternal search is done
My angel is here. I shed happy tears
And I will shine on for she is my sun
I ask her: “Where have you been all these years?”
Sweet music and magic come when we kiss
And the way we hold each other’s hand tight
And when I am with her it is pure bliss
And her beauty shines through in the moonlight

I found you after many a broken heart
I so love you and may we never part


20th July 2000

Gave up gave in

No I do not seek a soul mate anymore
That’s it. It’s over. It’s come to an end
Go. Leave me. Go away and close that door
On me and my efforts to find a friend
You know they say all the world’s a stage
But the season has run out for this clown
He leaves despite all the sorrow and rage
The audience yells abuse. He stands down
Yet all is not well that doesn’t end well
But still I am glad I gave up. I am smart
As before, I’ll go on and leave this hell
No way am I in a bond that falls apart

Girlfriends are not the way out of this mess
I’ll just sit here and rot in this darkness


18th June 2000

Last Chance

Shall we speak today or speak tomorrow?
Will we ever see each other again?
No. Never. Quite possible not.
But then…..
Last chance to speak to each other?
Yes. So….
Your reactions to me aren’t like the rest
My madness you seem to find amusing
Hasn’t happened before -
Interesting
You don’t regard me as some kind of pest
My chances to speak with you failed
True
Did I tell you all I had to say?
No but then tomorrow is another day
Or is it?
Will I remain ever blue

So will we speak again in time?
Maybe. And then everything will be fine


28th May 2000