My Brilliant Career

I: Earth
Marching firmly across a rock so pure
With each step building up with momentum
Today’s the day a pilgrimage began
On this path leading towards the future
Marching relentlessly with a clean slate
All heading to the Promised Land at last
Forgetting ‘bout the demons of the past
Because now’s not the time to hesitate
Underneath the rays of purest sunshine
Move ever forward, emerge triumphant
Only the strong challenge establishment
Today is the hour, now is the time

At journey’s end, grasp the cup of success
And taste the purest taste that is the best

II: Sun
You know something? I feel like I can fly
I have the strength to reach the greater height
I want to run and jump and to take flight
I feel like reaching out to touch the sky
Burning forward with the power of one
I want to bask in the pure light of the sun
Flexing my muscles, I will climb so high
Destiny is calling. Now is the time
I’m gonna get there, sweat drips from each pore
Sure I did plummet from grace once before
But now I’m climbing back to the sunshine

I feel like spreading out my silver wings
And fly up towards the palace of kings

III: Moon
I’m a cork in the middle of the sea
I’m the voice that no one else can concede
Guided by a map nobody can read
Is there anyone else that can hear me?
Can someone else tell me where I came from?
I’ve lost contact with the rest of the world
I cannot walk for my strength has been quelled
Can someone else tell me where I went wrong?
Memories drift into this barren surface
Memories of when it was all fertile
Memories of when I could walk a mile
But the old way is gone leaving no trace

Without direction, I left to linger
As the life I knew slips through my fingers

IV: Infinity
Forget everything that’s happened before
Forget all the times where one has fallen
Just listen to the voice that is calling
An invitation to go and explore
There is a world out there on which to tread
The way’s made out to a world of wonder
A world of marvels, beauty and colour
So take a long deep breath and move ahead
Can’t stop now, there’s too much to do and see
To slip here would be a dreadful crime
So take it all with one step at a time
Until you’ve finally achieved victory

At last, I drank from the cup of success
To taste the purest taste that is the best


??/?? 2003

I'm going to kill that woman

Crippled and battered I lay on my bed
With memories that have all become lies
Thumped with a thousand punches, my heart cries
Twisted thoughts begin to pollute my head
Now, the time has come to end this charade
You have a date with my friend – The shotgun
A killing moon has risen - don’t try to run
All sense of reason has begun to fade
We are not waltzing any more my dear
Blood stains the walls and a mirror broken
Gun smoke fills the room - My wrath has spoken
So tell me: can you feel the love in here?

Each part of me is screaming for vengeance
For the love that turned out to be nonsense


??/?? 2003

Surrender

You have a secret smile – just for me
You draw closer, ready for the taking
With eyes on me you tilt your head shyly
This is one dream from which I’m not waking
Every square inch of your skin craves my touch
Take my hand and fall into white satin
Nothing to lose, no rescue bar to clutch
Into your sparkling eyes I am drowning
Soft rivers of your hair slips through my hand
Seeing you like this takes my breath away
United by love, together we land
So sat with me beyond the break of day

To a deep ocean of you I fall in
With drams of white satin, white stain


??/?? 2003

Thoughts of a lonely drunk

All of my friends are happily married
They don’t want to hang ‘round me any more
Now they stay home on weekends instead
And without them life has become a bore
Its no longer fun going out at night
Laughing out loud and drinking the pub dry
Bellowing out a song with all our might
As we send all our brain cells our to fly
Now, the atmosphere of the bar’s a farce
Drinking by myself makes me a loser
If I drink too much they call me an arse
And tomorrow, I’ll be with my hangover

My friends don’t want to go on one last round
It’s the life of an adult they’ve all found


??/?? 2003

The Creature of Nightmares

Once I met a creature of a nightmare
He was dressed in finery, red and gold
He had a face that was ageless and cold
He looked ready for a dupe to ensnare
There’s no telling what he’d seen in his eyes
He had lived through and endured everything
He had stood and seen the whole world changing
He could change the line between truth and lies
He fixed me with the most sadistic grin
We’d met before when I was a child
He’d haunted my dreams and made them wild
To his world of madness, he wanted me in

I turned my back. I didn’t want to know
I walked away. I’d somewhere else to go


??/?? 2003

Elvis doesn't answer my e-mails

Once, I sent Elvis Presley an e-mail
Asking how he’s doing and if he’s well
I said I liked his work with JXL
And I asked for a reply – without fail
I sent The King a cyberspace greeting
Does he still enjoy his hamburgers?
What does he think of impersonators?
Is Vegas still a place worth visiting?
I wrote to Grace Lands to say “howdy!”
And to thank Aron for leading the way
(For the modern music we hear today)
And would he find time to write back to me

And I am still waiting for a reply
But no such thing has come – I wonder why?


??/?? 2003

The private life of a jester

Let me tell you a wonderful story
A story full of laughter and sharp wit
A story full of song and poetry
A story about a social misfit
I’ll arrange my words in a complex maze
I’ll keep you enthralled so you will stay
And I’ll hold you, my audience, in my gaze
Because you know I’ve got something to say
This is a story no one else would hear
Performed by someone no one else would know
They won’t know I can be gentle and dear
This me, to you, I’m not ashamed to show

Love is blind but you know who to listen to
And you will hear it because I love you


??/?? 2003

For everyone who’s posted an anti-religious poem at TPS

Yes, you may voice your opinions on God
Yes, you have the freedom to speak your mind
Yes, you can speak on how he made life unkind
But can you spare a thought for me – the mod?
I have to read this stuff as well you know!
I have to keep the hope forum in check
But recently I’ve turned into a wreck
Because this poetic batch makes me feel low
You may renounce, condemn, question and curse
But I’m reading this after a hard day
I see nothing to make me shout “Hooray!”
Consequentially, I’m left feeling worse!

So voice your hatred of God if you should
But is that supposed to make me feel good?!


30th October 2003

Built to last

No amount of punches will keep me down
I will never crack, rot, decay or rust
I will crush my enemies into dust
I stand on my feet. I don’t kiss the ground
My legs won’t fail, they will take me there
My arms keep on – They won’t go down this time
My brain knows and awaits the victory sign
You call it impossible. I don’t care
You may hit, punch, kick and try to shake me
But as long as my heart’s inside thumping
The engine that is me will keep on pumping
And nothing you say or do will break me

There’s no foe to big, no challenge to great
I’ll keep moving. I don’t need an update


??/?? 2003

You would know every word!

Sitting in a car in the hot summer
My sister sings along to the radio
She knows every word and where it should go
So, can someone save me from this torture?
It’s the same song that’s been playing for weeks
One of emotional intensity
She knows every word – unsurprisingly
But it makes us look like a pair of freaks
Does she think I care that she knows every line?
Does she know that this is embarrassing?
Does she think that I want to hear her sing?
Do I have to spell it out? Hang a sign?

And you know what really makes me sick?
She’s not a teenager, she’s twenty six!


10-11/10/2003

Journeys of Transition

My brother is but a plane trip away
My sister’s now got a place of her own
I can talk to them when they’re on the phone
But no longer do I see them each day
Years ago it was all a different way
We would argue, take sides, bicker and fight
We would refuse to share and forget birthdays
And we’d deny the bond that held us tight
But now, with my siblings gone, it’s different
Conversations last longer than before
We’ve even stopped hating our parents
And we support each other more and more

Absence doesn’t just make the heart grow fonder
It makes the bond of family stronger


??/?? 2003

Accident in the kitchen

I live with three humans who are quite kind
And my daft, but lovable, half brother
Sure we fight but we look after each other
But there’s a prize that we both wish to find
Then one day, the opportunity came
The door to the inside was left open
So we both headed into the kitchen
Where our sought after prize waited the claim
We advanced to the place called the pantry
A place we had come to know very well
We grabbed a bag we picked out from the smell
And we tore it open to reap victory

Then I found dog food strewn across the floor
And my dogs eating it up by the score


??/?? 2003

A will to succeed

The night matures as the hours tick by
The tenacious manual’s looking hazy
If I don’t get some rest I’d probably die
But I will not let anything stop me
When I’m around I create disasters
It used to be like that but not any more
Once blamed, my confidence’s left in tatters
But that won’t happen again that’s for sure
All night long, I’ve worked on this masterpiece
Because I was convinced it could be done
With determination that’ll never cease
I reach for a goal that’s begging to be won

I’m not stopping now – I will pass the test
And then – I’ll relish my well deserved rest


??/?? 2003

The Sun

The sun’s been burning for eternity
It has seen many cultures rise and fall
Revered for centuries as a gift for all
Providing light and warmth for you and me
If it’s not for the sun, we won’t be here
It is the promise of a brand new day
And, in this world, reason enough to stay
And absolutely nothing left to fear
So when times are tough and I’m feeling down
I’ll look up and the see the sun shining still
And I’ll be infused with a stronger will
And the strength to face the day with no frown

Each day I wake and see the sun still there
And that is hope enough beyond compare


27-8/9/2003

Australian life in the Summer time

The smell of meat cooking on the Barbie
The shouts of joy as the beer gets passed round
The sound of a cricket match on TV
The crunching of feet upon a dry ground
The taste of leftover Christmas chocolate
The thrill of kayaking through ocean spray
The pleasure of getting out of bed late
The sunset at the end of each day
The haze emerging from asphalt burning
The house being empty - save for cool rooms
The discarding of school books and learning
The gorgeous mornings, blazing afternoons

Yeah, it’s a beautiful day – don’t you know?
I couldn’t agree with you more Bono


??/?? 2003

An offering of Blood

It happened by the light of a full moon
The ageless man paced across the cold floor
He stopped on the sound of a creaking door
Then she walked in from the shadows and gloom
She was young – A newborn but full of charm
She must travel a long road from today
The least he could do was show her the way
He held, before her, his pale bare arm
Her incisors bit into his white skin
Red blood burst out from the penetration
She kissed the arm, relished the sensation
To her stomach, the red blood flowed on in

Her thirst for blood urged her to consume more
She drank and became stronger than before


??/?? 2003

Torture Chamber

I can’t move because I’m tied to a chair
Secure, immobile in ropes tied up tight
Sweating and gagged beneath a single light
And my masculinity is laid bare
Way over the edge my words have pushed her
In the realm of madness she’s fallen in
As she locks me with a sadistic grin
She advances with a rolled up newspaper
She uses this newspaper to strike me
To deal a vicious blow across the face
Following this blow, another take it’s place
As she starts yelling these words angrily:

“Stop being so miserable you hear me?!
“Just be happy! Be happy! Be happy!”


??/?? 2003

A tribute to a Best Friend

When you’re sad, I’ll take you to get you drunk
And I’ll help kill the guy you find vexing
When you’re worried, I’ll say “Stop whining!”
Because we’re on a boat that can’t be sunk
Should you fall over I will laugh at you
If you’re confused, I’ll keep it simple
You may call me an annoying pimple
But I know you’ll help me when I’m blue
And if you need help drinking beer quickly
Or you need someone to watch anime
Or gripe on how women won’t come our way
Know this: You can always rely on me

The future is there before us my friend
Here’s to a strong friendship that never ends


??/?? 2003

Rain

I saw you standing there out in the rain
As the sky fell on us from up above
You looked so sad, alone and full of pain
So I walked out to be with you - my love
You looked up with a sad face but didn’t speak
I touched your chin and asked: “Is that a tear?
“A tear that runs with the rain down your cheek?”
You seemed sad I had to draw you near
Next thing I knew, you fell into my chest
Because one’s love is worth holding onto
Closing the embrace, I made up the rest
Holding, loving and sticking up for you

You want to cry? Cry all you want my dear
Just remember I will always be here


??/?? 2003

Come Away With Me

So I took both your hands into my own
And we walked together into the night
With a bright full moon as our guiding light,
We found a beach where we could be alone
While the rest of the world was sleeping
We danced together on the yellow sand
In the pure moonlight I took your soft hand.
And created a memory worth keeping
And then, barefoot we went to the shoreline
Once there, we both laughed and splashed each other
And then we stargazed with one another
Counting how many shooting stars we found

Tender was that moment beyond compare
No one knows of it so it’s ours to share


14th July 2003

Bury Me

Crippled and dumped in front of the TV
With my vast collection of anime
But I have nobody waiting for me
So this life’s all the same: day by day
My abysmal social skills keep me in
And there’s no dragons or demons to fight
And there’s no princess’ hearts for me to win
Therefore, my beds left empty on a cold night
Care and affection, these anime girls serve
They fall for the frail and make them happy
So anime guys get what they deserve
And I am left chasing a fantasy.

So take me to my cell and throw me in it
And leave me to drown in my own vomit


14th July 2003

2AM

There’s a glorious full moon out tonight
And there should be two lovers there dancing
All looks so beautiful bathed in the moonlight
But there’s no time for any romancing
The candles on the table are melting
And there’s a romance movie on TV
But the temperature of my bed’s freezing
Why must I waste this opportunity?
Right now, both my parents are out of town
Leaving the house to my machinations
But my love’s not gonna come on down
Cos’ she lives in my imagination.

The cold night wraps it’s arms around this soul
And there is nothing here to break my fall


14th July 2003

Memories

A cracked mirror won’t look the same again
A resurrection forever won’t last
There’s no going back on a one-way lane
As all things behind me become the past
In tough times I’ll recall a memory
But they keep slipping from my fingers
Thus I forget that which made me happy
Despite those golden times the pain lingers
But if my sanctuary is crumbling
I can rebuild it with new memories
They will protect me when down I’m tumbling
And grant me strength to rush my enemies

I walk on. The future is waiting for me
And I’ll go and a build a new memory.


30th June 2003

Apart

It’s never stopped raining since yesterday
And it’s for myself I am left to fend
As the worlds soaked and everything’s turned grey
I wonder if the pain will ever end
Wrongly taken away you were from me
For reasons, they said, were for the better
We had the strength to last an eternity
But without you I have become weaker
The rain continues to fall on my skin
But I know the rain droplets are your tears
With the great pain shared, the torment is grim
But these words you won’t be able to hear

Bleeding horribly is my wounded heart
I can’t bear the pain of being apart


28th June 2003

When will I make the TPS Spotlight of the Week?!

There’s a place called the Poet’s Sanctuary
Where poets are given the chance to speak
But one question consistently bothers me
When will I make the spotlight of the week?!
Everyone thinks my poems are quite good
I keep churning out good stuff constantly
Achieve this goal? I would if I could!
But this damn spotlight keeps eluding me
Week after week comes by with no success
Sooner or later, my time’s got to come
Call me an annoyance call me a pest
But I won’t shut up until I have won

Will this poem get the spotlight? Who knows?
Here’s hoping it does and ceases my woes.


28th June 2003

We all have wings: A tribute to Hayao Miyazaki

We all have our wings but some don’t use them
As sad as it seems, they don’t know how to
But the day is coming - I don’t know when
When we will fly into the sky of blue
I know there’s lots to offer in this world
And it’s worth holding memories so dear
And it’s worth sticking to the ideas you’ve held
So take a great leap forward with no fear
It doesn’t matter if you’re young or old
Keep your head high and choose a path to take
Move forward - Build a story to be told
Go to a destiny for you to make

Believe it: Magic exists in us all
By knowing this, you’ll fly and never fall.


24th June 2003

The Journey of Winter's Passing

All the white snow melted in the morning
As the night packed up and left with it’s stars
We come here with the arrival of Spring
When we have spent so long coming this far
Rivers of melting ice flow to oceans wide
But no width no great can break a friendship
Through day and night, we journey like a tide
I’ll help you if, on this march, you should slip
Whether in sun or icy winter howl
When will this journey end? No one can tell
We’ve been through so much to ever stop now
Because we have something we won’t drop or sell

The seasons change as this friendship stands strong
But we won’t ever stop singing this song


24th June 2003

No one came to my party

The letterbox’s empty cos’ there’s no mail
The cake isn’t tasting as great as it should
The wine’s going flat and the beer’s no good
And all the tasty food is going stale
The music’s loud but there’s no dancing feet
Where there should be voices, there’s only silence
This solitary existence makes no sense
And there’s no one at the front door to greet
But no one’s listening cos no one does care
Since no one bothered to know, no one knows
And as this day’s been invaded by lows
What good is a party when no one’s there?

I shouldn’t be crying on my birthday
So dig me a grave where in I can lay


12th June 2003

Night Terror

It starts happening in the dead of night
From each end of the house it comes prowling
It comes like a ravenous beast growling
And this leaves me hugging my pillow tight
The damage caused will be too much to mend
As plaster falls from the ceiling crumbling
Shaking the house with it’s ghastly rumbling
This is a monstrosity of legend
Enough to make one a quivering heap
There is nothing for me to reach out to
I wonder how long this will continue
This paranoia that keeps me from sleep

Who’s there to fool? Yes it’s true: My Dad snores
And there’s one thing I want to know: Does yours?


7th June 2003

Taking Punches

I feel great but you don’t like that at all
You aren’t happy until my eyes are red
You will do anything to make me fall
You gladly rip my self-esteem to shreds
You cram my ears with the dreadful of lies
You say you will be my friend and help me
Why? Because I’m pathetic in your eyes
The deception is all the more funny
The best is when true colours are revealed
And when all my hopes and dreams come out blank
My fate as a gullible prat is sealed
While you laugh all the way to the bank

So tell me, was it a worthwhile joke
To see a deceived and broken man choke?


7th June 2003

Alive

I will not forget what you’ve done and said
I will not forget the punches you dealt
I will not forget the blood that was spilt
I won’t forget when I wished I was dead
Why? Well look at me know. I’m still alive
Sure the horrible pain is still seething
But what matters is that I’m still breathing
I have a tenacious will to survive
Tell your friends. Tell the whole world. I’m still here
I will rock on with the widest of grins
I simply can’t lose. I can only win
Look at my face and you will see no fear

Knock me back down onto my knees? Never!
Hear this - I’m back and better than ever


31st May 2003

Paranoia

Here I continue struggling on my way
With nothing to use to make me strong
There is not right in this world - only wrong
And this life’s not black or white - only grey
How will I know I won’t be rejected?
How will I know I won’t be dubbed a jerk?
How will I know my friendships will all work?
How can I journey on unprotected?
What do I do if something new does come?
What do I do if my hands are empty?
And if there’s nothing left to aid me?
So what do I do? Do I walk? Or run?

Someone, anyone. Please give me a sign
Answer me! For I’m running out of time


31st May 2003

Will the Summertime come again?

Gone are the happy times I remember
The warmth, the beaches, the smiles, the fun
Gone for good is this years wave of summer
I don’t want it to leave! I want the sun!
But wait! The sun is shining this morning
I grab my shorts with a grin on my face
If the summer is truly returning
Then I’ll make it come at a quicker pace!
In shorts and T-shirt, I went to breakfast
When I got there, my mother laughed at me
She said: “In winter those clothes aren’t the best!”
“So go get changed and stop being silly!”

My fantasy didn’t stop winters gloom
But I still want to summer to return soon


25th May 2003

Unemployed

Its a new morning and the house is empty
My endless quest begins again anew
I haven’t got a place where I should be
So here I journey to find things to do
I walk alone with no one to help me
But I have company so all’s not lost
Just me and my videos and CD’s
Emerged from laziness I’ve paid the cost
My credentials are but a laughing stock
Built with little effort by lazy hands
So should this bleak future come as a shock?

Come on kids, come and laugh until you weep
Come on and meet the king of the trash heap


24th May 2003

Words

Fighting to say the words you want to hear
Secrets want to speak but I’m not willing
My face moulded into a mask of fear
From my hands so much sweat keeps on spilling
Ashamed, Awkward, embarrassed, hesitant.
From my mouth, one by one, words march on out
Slowly, haltingly, to you they are sent
They are said in a soft whisper, not a shout
Yes, these words have been a long time coming
But this moment you didn’t want to miss
So you took my hand in a grasp loving
And you leaned forward to complete the kiss

Your love has given me courage and strength. Thus
I just have to tell the world about us


??/?? 2003

March of the Goths

The day has ended, the sun has fallen
A cloak of dark nightshade is descending
The time has come to emerge from hiding
We now walk on our own feet - no crawling
March into the night now the sun’s gone down
Ranks and ranks of black cloth and white faces bland
Everyone holding a candle in hand
We march to gather on a secret hill
A sacred place where we have fun freely
Where none mock us and ourselves we can be
And into our stomachs sweet wine we’ll spill

We march on our pilgrimage in silence
And a single bell tolls in the distance


2nd May 2003

I shall think of you every time I hear Delta Goodrem

Light of the morning creeps into my room
A piano tells the world it’s misery
A heart-broken chick wails on TV
But, in my heart, no light can crush the gloom
The sad voice bears the shame of loneliness
And I must admit I know the feeling
A horrendous pain has left me reeling
Forging me into a miserable mess
I hope that where you are, you’re hearing the song
Because it’s not too late to change your mind
Me, you will know exactly where to find
And you’ll listen when I say I was wrong

I honestly want you back my lover
And we will both sing this song together


2nd May 2003

Desert

The flames in my heart are burning red hot
Burning like the wretched world around me
All I see is dry, scorched and left to rot
And no one knows because no one can see
You followed me in and you fell behind
We grow weaker as all our strength stays gone
We search the land but there’s nothing to find
Trapped in a doomed loop that goes on and on
There is nothing left for us both in here
Pain of guilt ravages, pride is swallowed
Infected with pain and blinded by fear
And the struggle will resume tomorrow

But a belief of hope won’t let me die
So lets keep walking with our heads held high


2nd May 2003

We're All Beautiful

You may have glasses and a twisted nose
You may have lop ears and a fat belly
You may have snaggle teeth arranged in rows
And people say you suck and you’re smelly
You may be mocked for not doing a sport
And for wearing black and having dark dreams
And for the fantasy worlds you have sought
And spending all time with computer screens
Look at to yourself and you’ll see beauty
And it can’t be taken away at all
If you believe, other people will see
So don’t let them bring you down - stand up tall

So you prom kings and queens - hear what we say
We are all beautiful in our own way


28th April 2003

Fantastic Plastic

Welcome to a place where it never rains
(apart from frequent natural disasters)
It was eternal sun and beach waters
Everyone’s happy and no one complains
Kids go to school but they don’t learn a thing
They’ve got no thought, or hope, for the future
Old folk are stupid, useless and un-pure
Former wise advisors are now boring
Amorous behaviour rules supreme here
You must not be single at any cost
And secure marriage vows are dropped and lost
And yes - there’s no ugly people ‘round here

All this is a fake view of reality
But then, who cares when it’s making money?


25th April 2003

Anzac Day

Today we arrived at Gallipoli
Well prepared the shed some blood, sweat and tears
We’ll fight with our heads held high and no fears
We’ll fight for our freedom, home and country
We all know our home is worth fighting for
Even if we may not see it again
We may get shot, crippled or go insane
But our cause is just in this grizzly war
In war we’ve made friendships strong as cement
Friends to get drunk with at the local pub
Friends to joke and laugh with at the gambling club
But now laughter is forever silent

This silence has given me time to think
So I’ll go join the old folks for a drink


25th April 2003

Thug

I don’t care if you flock to certain brands
I don’t care if you’ve a razor sharp mind
I don’t care if you like this band, that band
I don’t care if you are real nice and kind
I don’t care if you shed a thousand tears
I don’t care if you open your mouth wide
I don’t care if you live your life in fear
I don’t care if you attempt suicide
I don’t care if you stand on your own feet
I don’t care if great success comes your way
I don’t care if your potential you meet
I don’t care if you climb higher each day

Why I do this? For this answer you plea
Cos’ you’ll always be a dickhead to me


24th April 2003

An Internet Romance

I want you to come and live here with me
But that could only happen in a dream
I want you in my arms - in sanctuary
Not a blank, cold, faceless computer screen
I want to hear your voice’s melody
E-mailing works but gaps it doesn’t fill
I want to kiss your sweet lips tenderly
Not touch the cold indifference of steel
I want to say all these word to your face
But we’re in completely different time zones
I want you to be my light in this place
But wanting won’t stop me being alone

We may not know it but we need each other
But broad oceans divide us forever


23rd April 2003

How to write a sonnet

Some say sonnet writing is tough to complete
But I can write them with the greatest of ease
Thus I say: Writing sonnets is a breeze!
Know what to do and you’re on easy street
First, you will need a unique rhyming scheme
Like: A-B-B-A or A-B-A-B
And that’s just what your first four lines should be
And note that your lines should number fourteen
Make sure there’s ten syllables in each line
The rhyming will repeat as you will see
With: C-D-D-C or C-D-C-D
And if you make it this far, you’re doing fine
Writing the next four lines should be easy
E-F-F-E or E-F-E-F, see?
Now that the end is in sight, finally
You finish with your last two lines: G-G

Now you know how, so walk without fear
So go write a sonnet the world will hear


22nd April 2003

We don’t need anyone else because we have each other

I was blinded by frustration and rage
Confused and with a crippled memory
But I broke out of that horrendous cage
And cursed the world for persecuting me
But as I turned away, you did so too
Even so it meant your imminent doom
Why care? You did what you wanted to do
You risked everything to grant me a boon
You gave me strength in my bleakest hour
You soothed my rage and banished my demons
You showed me sweet love and all its power
So lets walk together - Find a haven

Lets flee the world and it’s accusing eye
Lets stay with each other until we die


9th April 2003

Say it to my face

Got something to say? Say it to my face
Do you believe that I should know this thing?
Open your mouth. Bring it on. I’m listening
Just don’t run off and leave a cowards trace
Forget about escaping completely
Forget all about your getaway car
Forget about running away so far
Don’t run like a wimp. Come out and face me
You’ve got the balls to open your big trap
But zero to face the consequences
If you gladly assault my senses
Then surely you won’t go hide from the rap

Don’t run. Don’t hide. Come out and talk your talk
You dared open your mouth so walk the walk


2nd April 2003

Strawberries and Cream

A waft of strawberries entered the room
As you lay on my bed seductively
I kissed your red lips so passionately
As the taste of red wine inside me bloomed
Your arms and your legs were as white as cream
My fingers danced upon your lingerie
In my arms was where you wanted to stay
Your taste was that of a white chocolate dream
Your scent was sweet - like that of vanilla
Your face was like the finest porcelain
You smiled, my heart melted and I fell in
And I taste the fruits of pure love with her

Such wine tastes lovely when shared with another
So in your arms I will stay forever.


30th March 2003

Nightmare

I was walking in a rainy twilight
Suddenly up pulled my grandmother’s car
I jumped in and pulled the seatbelt on tight
But the driver was not my grandmother
It was a stranger. A forty something
he had his face hidden with high collars
My blood turned cold, my hands began trembling
“Who are you?” I asked the man in horror
He didn’t answer. He just turned his head.
Dark painted circles, twisted painted grin
He looked alive as a corpse six days dead
To his world he had come to drag me in

He was a mess of make up and face white
He had come to take me into the night


26th March 2003

Lament

You can look at us, yes. But you can’t touch
You can talk however. We will listen
But just don’t expect us to care too much
We don’t give a toss ’bout the mess you’re in
You say Heaven’s coming down upon you
Why should I give a fuck ‘bout such a tool?
Go have a cry about it. Boo hoo hoo.
Because I’m already with someone cool
You are the type we won’t be caught dead with
Don’t crap on ‘bout need you’ll willingly provide
We don’t care if you loose the will to live
We won’t change. We are blinded by our pride

You go where you belong with all the slime
Fuck your sanctuary and your cloud nine


26th March 2003

Angelus Erroneous

When it happened, you asked me to forget
Even though I asked you to remember
It’s grip caught us both like fish in a net
And the world we knew was changed forever
The angels came down from the sky falling
With broken wings, bloodied wounds and frail limbs
You weren’t listening when you heard me calling
You only heard Heaven’s destructive hymns
The gates are now closed to this dying earth
To be never opened ever again
On this wrecked ground there is no time for mirth
As the dead number in thousands of ten.

That fateful day marked the end of a dream
You broke down when I asked you not to scream


23rd March 2003

We need each other

And if the mountains should crumble and fall
And if everything is drowned in the sea
I won’t be afraid. I won’t cry at all
Because I have good friends who stand by me
I don’t know where I’m heading nor what I’ve seen
But I do know that we need each other
We can’t turn ‘round and head back where we’ve been
Friendship is indeed a powerful tool
It will keep me going through this lifetime
Friends don’t think I’m a jerk. They think I’m cool
And in bleaker times, they are my lifeline

But all my friends have all packed up and gone
And I’m acting on a lie to keep on


21st March 2003

Celtic blood

I can pick up a sword ‘cos I can fight
I am eager to explore lands far away
I’m prepared to give my life for what’s right
And I have tales and stories to say
My home is an island of trees and green
Where the bond of kinship keeps running strong
But my true birthplace is one I haven’t seen
However my heritage has not gone
I have walked this earth for so many years
With spirits of my family to guide me
My ancestral strength protects me from fears
From invaders wherever they may be

Though our world is gone, our spirit won’t fall
I have Celtic blood and I’ll heed it’s call


21st March 2003

Sad, Beautiful Little Goth Girl

I am so glad that you are my best friend
Because with you I can do anything
I’ll play on this guitar so you can sing
With you my happiness will never end
Some brain dead fools think you’re cracked in the head
But if there’s a problem, it’s all theirs
You are different, you live without cares
And that’s why I make your love my soft bed
Who needs those pricks when we have each other?
Such is our love’s strength, I know it’ll stand tall
Even when angels come and heaven falls
With you I don’t need no other lover

Let me in your kingdom. I’ll be your king
When night falls, I bring you my love undying


20th March 2003

Please stay with me

Please stay with me, I need you here today
Without you I don’t know what I’ll be
Can’t you see I want you to stay with me?
I don’t want this pure joy to go away
With you I can conquer any demon, any fear
Without you I wouldn’t have been stronger
So I ask you to stay a little longer
I don’t want you to go - I need you here
There is still so much that I have to say
Despite everyone telling me I’m wrong
But a house is not a home with you gone
So I’m not wanting the end of this day

A wide ocean divides us forever
But one day we will be together


20th March 2003

Electrical Storm

Last night the skies screamed, rumbled and roared
The darkness lit up as the lightening flashed
The soaked earth shook as the thunderbolts crashed.
And the world heard the wrath of the sky’s lord
The heavens brought forth their fury and rage
An unstoppable ire that burned and fumed
A ghastly war that exploded and boomed
Herding all living things into a cage
I lay on my bed with a loaded gun
The noise outside distancing me from sleep
Whilst I drowned on paranoia so deep
I waited for the coming of the sun

And as through the night the sky’s temper flared
The next day, war on Iraq was declared.


20th March 2003

Friday evening

With roaring engines and screeching of tyres
We go in a car, heading for the town
We’ll find a bar, our sorrows we will drown
While inside excitement burns in fires
We drive through town, bright neon lights flash past
Loud guitars pump on the car stereo
Eating chocolate we go with the flow
The night is so young so lets make it last
Five days of hard work has come to an end
So lets grasp freedom with our own two hands
No more assignments, no more boss’ demands
To our stomachs lots of beer we will send

So lets go drink and be merry. Why wait?
The week is over so lets celebrate


17th March 2003

Saturday morning

The sun comes slowly from behind the hills
Heralding a bright new day beginning
Everywhere the sun rays reach, touch and fill
But sadly no nobody is noticing
They’re still asleep, sheets pulled over their heads
Or they’re playing on a sports field somewhere
Or they’re outside, tending their flower beds
Or they’re shopping, spending without a care
And while cartoons are on my TV
Sharing the space with music videos
I play my computer games happily
Because the house is quiet. No one knows

Such a morning is grasped in different ways
It only comes once every seven days


17th March 2003

Kill all hippies

See that nob kicking that hippy over there?
He says hippies are scum who deserve it
And all the concepts of peace are shit
But I can tell you why we should all care
I know the nob. I see him all the time
He ignores his parents and he skips school
He thinks defying rules make him real cool
But he’s a tosser in these eyes of mine
You see, the hippy came way before him
He defied many of the rules of old
He didn’t listen when of war he was told
Those days are gone but still his message sings

The nob is kicking his predecessor
A fact he is blind to - nor does he care


3rd March 2003

When I grow old

The day is coming when I will grow old
My brain will fail and my skin will age
I’ll be trapped in a never-changing cage
And my flesh and blood begin to go cold
But I have tools for when old age arrives
A Why follow rules? ideal I’ll apply
If it works for kids, It’ll work for I
With this perspective, I will survive
And there’s the betrayal of my offspring
Who went and shunned me away behind walls
They will see and be embarrassed, appalled.
And there’s no revenge more satisfying

Old age may grasp me in a grip so tight
But I’m not going down without a fight!


3rd March 2003

Countdown to war

Paranoia keeps the red blood flowing
So that destructive bombs can keep falling
Money keeps the corporations growing
To the people our leaders aren’t listening
Greed makes sure arms keep manufacturing
Towards a blind goal all keep marching
While the news media keep on lying
And thus nobody knows who we’re fighting
So much money goes into weapon making
Whilst many poor children are left starving
Minority groups we keep on blaming
Whilst welfare is left with zero funding

All concepts of peace are out the window
Closer to Hell we continue to go


20th February 2003

I’m stuck on an island and I can’t get off it

Lost long in time for forty thousand years
A land of deserts and eternal sun
Tucked away in a corner, seen by none
This ancient land is full of dreams and fears
But does the rest of the world even care?
Shunned by a ruler we will never see
Perceived by the rest as a mockery
Progress is going completely nowhere
Isolated, forgotten by the world
I will walk this land on an empty road
The river of time continues to flow
Into dust ancestral blood has been hurled

I will keep on walking day after day
Until rivers of time sweep me away


20th February 2003

Walking the Beat

I will devote myself to helping others
I know I am putting my life on line
For I understand there’ll come a time
When I will provide protective covers
I will represent order - tough but fair
Become an icon of security
I will keep the peace in this big city
When a cry for help comes, I will be there
Kids will see me and they will loudly cheer
Because I am brave. I am kind and strong
I will help out those kids when things go wrong
With me nearby they have nothing to fear

I will keep the peace and accept no thanks
This is my choice, I want to join the ranks


17th February 2003

Rainy Sunday

The rain comes downward onto my window
Keeping me restricted on the inside
With no place to be and no where to go
I have all the time in the world to bide
The house is quiet ‘cos we’re all snoozing
The streets are empty and there’s naught to do
The radio’s on for anyone listening
And there’s not a soul around to talk to
But this serenity is but a dream
A fragile dream that will end tomorrow
And when the coming night has gone and been
It is back to our real lives we will go

Today I relax in serenity
But sadly this is but temporary


16th February 2003

Last day of the year

It’s with little surprise that it’s raining
And everything around is coloured grey
Many clouds have stopped the sun from shining
Telling us one thing: Today is the day
Many things have been accomplished this year
Things which are now a faded memory
Thus as the time of awakening grows near
Our human hearts and souls are left empty
The streets are vacant and the shops are sealed
There’s no smiling faces out on this day
But it’s the road - with engines it is filled
Because everyone is moving away

But in all this barren devastation
We wait for the day when we’ll rise again


16th February 2003

Did you hear about this one?

It was on this day that the dream did die
And five years of hard work came to an end
I have now stepped off-stage and said goodbye
My future is now in my hands to bend
But, with this goodbye, should I give a toss?
They won’t notice my leaving. They don’t care
Constantly I found myself at a loss
The house wasn’t a home at all, back there
But in spite of it all, it did change me
I went in a child and came out a man
I saw things when before I couldn’t see
I won respect and friends - whom by me stand

The show has moved on - this time without me
And I have nothing - but the memory


16th February 2003

So you wanna know what it's like to be single?

I have a mouth but no voice to speak with
Ironic when I have a lot to say
I have arms, the long not returned to give
A shame no one's come to take it away
I have eyes to see happy couples smile
Enjoying things I'll never get to do
I have a brain of illusions and guile
Struggling to keep alive a dream that's true
I have a heart - One of the broken kind
And I have a hole that needs to be filled
But this planet is ignorant and blind
Thus, it's the end of my world I now yield

But why would you care about today’s news?
You have no idea what it's like to lose


9th February 2003

I don't want any friends

I don’t want friends. I just don’t care at all.
I’ll go into my room and sit on the shelf
Material objects stretch from wall to wall
But I don’t care. I’m in love with myself
I’m a genius of the elite kind
Who cares if no one else acknowledges it?
Nothing compares to myself and my mind
So it’s my way or no way. Get it?
I do have friends - Them I abuse and taunt
But the truth is, they’re not friends. Just a lie
I’ll keep on being mean. I won’t get caught
I will never learn cos I don’t see why

Don’t give me change. Don’t give me friends
I want this to stay until the world ends


3rd February 2003