I fell in love with a girl

Challenging establishment. Taking heat
Make a suggestion. Walk without your fear
I open my mouth. It all becomes clear
There’s someone here I would like you to meet
I don’t want to lose. I want to come first
Are you serious? You must be joking
Stand in the corner. Continue choking
And now the Heavens are about to burst
A thousand white lilies fall from the sky
Your eyes are blinded and I have no voice
Worlds come tumbling down. Idiots rejoice
And a bright red rose shrivels up to die

So tell me now: Where from here do I go?
When she replied with but a simple “no”?


6th November 2004

I hate my life and I want to die

Nobody understands a word I say
To them all my words are utter nonsense
Nobody sees things in quite the same way
Instead, they’ll just slam me for being dense
No one shares the same interests as me
They don’t have a clue what I’m on about
I talk - they nod their heads receptively
Do they see my passion? I have my doubts
They all see something that’s beyond my gaze
They all know something to which I’ve been slack
They won’t tell me the road out of this maze
Instead they’re all laughing behind my back

So remind me why I follow the sham
Of always being proud of who I am


6th November 2004

Cloud

All the angels in heaven are weeping
Sending their tears to the blue world below
Tears that hammer down outside my window
And the pain of losing you keeps seeping
Now and forever it’s you I still love
Regretting the silly things I did say
Even if they all came out the wrong way
As a grey cloud bursts in the sky above
The rest of the world’s disappeared from view
And your absence is driving me insane
Come find me standing alone in the rain
And in my love and my heart I’ll drown you

Listen to me when I bring forth this plea
My love, I want you to come back to me


6th November 2004