Untitled (I)

She rings up to tell of a new boyfriend
This being her seventh phone call this week
His greatness: The only thing she can speak
And it doesn’t seem clear when it will end
Apparently they do much together
Go shopping, buy gifts, do lunch, take photos
Introducing her friends, watch TV shows
Has he let her down completely? Never
Making very clear this good thing she’s got
He fills her up with happiness so true
With him she does things that we used to do
This I’m told whether I like it or not

I’m happy for you that you’re doing well
But can’t you find somebody else to tell?


25th November 2013

Early Morning Departure

Woke up at 4am but she did not
Got clothes and shoes on just like it was planned
A kiss on the cheek. A squeeze of her hand
For I will be missing her a whole lot
Sitting in a dark room on a suitcase
An airline ticket in hand, held tightly
Phone rings. Head outside and into taxi
As I’m driven away leaving no trace
As I journey I think of her, so fair
No doubt she is still sleeping peacefully
What will she do this weekend without me?
What will she do when she finds I’m not there?

But no matter the distance love won’t wane
And I know we will be together again


11th November 2013

I feel better now

And suddenly it’s clear and it’s all true
Look at me: I’ve reason to be happy
Because I’m heading off for some place new
For I’ve had a moment of clarity
In amongst the confusion I found out
This thing called life: it’s one big joke you see
All the disasters? The failures? The doubt?
Don’t argue: Just follow it completely
The attempts made to progress aren’t worth it
So it shouldn’t be a concern for me
So goodbye those I know: You did jack shit
Now watch as I discard all sanity

So towards chaos I open the door
Is it worth it? I don’t care any more


28th October 2013

The lament of a conscience

My friend has made a terrible mistake
I tried to warn him but he wouldn’t heed
I gave him the good advice he would need
But stupid moves he continues to make
I do my job but he just doesn’t care
Why speak? He won’t hear a damn word I say
I want to see him heading in the right way
But he keeps forgetting I’m always there
Why do I bother hanging around him?
I stuck with him! This is the thanks I get!
I’m treated with the same hate as a debt!
Well stuff it then: I’m handing my badge in

To make mistakes. So my friend you are free
Only this time it will be without me


14th October 2013

The Voice you Refuse to hear

Right beside you with every step taken
No matter where you go it’s coming too
Don’t like it? Well there’s nothing you can do
Ignore? You can try but you’re mistaken

Each and every thing you do it will see
All the good, all the bad, every action
It will note words said, each interaction
But it won’t tell you where you need to be

It will see thieving, the times you’re untrue
The people you hurt, the cruel words you say
It won’t speak out but it won’t go away
Because all it wants is what’s best for you

Unseen, it will be with you everywhere
And when the darkness calls it will be there


9th September 2013

Man's Best Friend

Within the eyes love unconditional
A face that doesn’t deserve any harm
The hardest heart, a nature to disarm
A motivation unquestionable
A friend who will never leave you alone
Who will love you more than you love yourself
Greater than you’ll know; Providing a wealth
From day of birth it’s all it’s ever known
True definition of friend to the end
No matter where you go; will walk with you
And will go with everything that you do
You; and much very prepared to defend

Still your best friend when no one else will be
For it’s not a complete jerk that they see

Four Old Men

Four old men were working in an office
Still doing the same job five decades on
Working with numbers, profits and losses
But the conclusion is still one foregone

Four men still talk of plans they had coming
As the computers and desks grow dusty
The business continues to keep running
Riding on skills slowly getting rusty

Four men still greet each other come morning
Any hopes, ambitions have all decayed
Where once run is now reduced to crawling
So may as well keep going ‘til they fade

Four old men working for a goal long gone
As the rest of the world keeps moving on


26th August 2013

Reaper Man

Sitting on park bench, watching the people
Watching the world pass behind pitch black shades
His hair grey and his face wracked by decades
He sits so still, not moving a muscle
He twirls the top of a cane in his hand
Says no words – as silent as a dead star
And boots that look like they’ve been travelling far
Seems unconcerned with what time may demand
Dressed entirely in blackest of leathers
Is he waiting for someone to walk by?
Somehow it maybe best not to ask why
Says no words for he’s the one who measures

Watching the people pass, he sits and waits
For its he himself that decides the fates


5th August 2013

God mightn’t love you but Science does

Science is your friend! It loves you so much!
It wants naught but only the best for you!
It don’t care about what you want to do
We’re just the puppets that dance to its touch
Your genes tell you how it’s going to be
They don’t care about what plans you have made
Don’t like the path that’s already been laid?
Well too bad: You’re stuck with it now buddy
You will also need a tribe to call home
You will hang around them and only them
Just don’t mingle – Everyone will condemn
Or you run the risk of being alone

But don’t complain: Science is a friend true
It wants naught but only the best for you


15th July 2013

Its only love

A sunset’s been painted across the sky
Together on the edge of a clear lake
With a picnic basket holding wine, cake
As a summer evening breeze drifts on by

Dressed in a white shirt and a waistcoat red
Whilst she’s wearing a dress of deep blue
Seeing a truth only we know is true
The chink of wine glasses chime with words said

Her hand rests on mine. Warm is the touch
Leaning in, her head resting on my shoulder
Feeling a bond stronger than a boulder
And love for each other that burns so much

Another prefect day ends spent with her
For an evening together I confer


Completed 8th July 2013

Death of a Dream

Today's the day the dream cracked wide open
Just stand there and watch it collapse and burn
The endpoint of years spent fighting, hoping
Trade it for an irrevocable turn
Why did it go wrong? You were doing well
Could say there’ll be next time but it’s not true
Walked like a giant. Devastatingly fell
And the world’s been warped into something new
What do you do when the world has fallen?
What do you do when there’s nothing to clasp?
Has destiny decreed to stop calling?
When the victory slipped and fell from grasp?

There anything left worthy to obtain?
Is it worth starting all over again?


1st July 2013

Sunday Lunch

A sky of clearest blue. No cloud in sight
A house fifty miles from anywhere
A backyard looking deserted and bare
A green garden lit up by the sun’s light

By several cars, a driveway occupied
But there’s no sign of life that can be found
That can be heard. Because the only sound
Comes drifting in from the building’s inside

Chinks of both wine glasses and cutlery
A mixture of voices both young and old
Jokes being cracked and stories being told
Away from the world a good company

All thoughts of tomorrow have gone away
For now is the time to enjoy the day



Completed: 24th June 2013

Thor goes to war

With the thunderbolts still at beck and call
An ancient force advances, proud and strong
Warrior. Guardian. King of his throng
Fought a thousand battles. Never did fall
To the undefeated a challenge comes
War calls: Now’s not the time to turn away
Voices of millennia guide his way
Each step to the sound of a thousand drums
Of fierce of Valkyries at his back; A score
The grip on the hammer strong as ever
The power of thunder ceasing never
Could be the last but it has been before

Having stood tall over the blood and slime
He picks up the hammer for one more time


June 10th 2013

The Old Man and the TV

It’s been one year into retirement
And one year of finding things to be done
The plans he’d made have already been spent
And suddenly there’s no roads left to run
Turn on the TV for nothing to do
What could be on? Does it even matter?
Take a seat. Move? Why bother trying to
Turn off the brain. Submit to the chatter
Enjoying when there’s not much to enjoy
Insisting its enjoyable when it’s not
Turn it off? Too much effort to employ
Relax for the motivation’s been shot

At sixty: Your new best friend: The TV
Naught to do but welcome senility


3rd June 2013

Ever felt like you’ve been cheated?

Being led on by promises empty
Debts facing no plans of being repaid
Being asked to hand over a sucker’s fee
Relying solely on a false trust made
Investing cash in a goal not alive
Putting in effort for little return
Waiting patiently though it won’t arrive
Realising you don’t have money to burn
What made you think it would work out this time
From one can recover; Not a blunder
From common sense why did you cross the line?
Why’d you bother? One can only wonder

So what is there to do when it’s all gone?
For one, you stand up and keep moving on


27th May 2013

Born This Way

I may not grasp situations social
But I take pride in being different
I may have trouble in being vocal
But in my field I’m genius ascent
I may not work the best within a group
But I will not abandon my self-worth
I may struggle to remain in the loop
But I work harder than anyone on Earth
“He’s a weirdo”; “He’s strange’ people may say
But none of that matters at all you see
Because I’m a success in my own way
For it is an Aspie that I should be

And this is all me – A me that is true
I can’t change even if I wanted to

Melbourne Woman

Meeting at the station in Flinders Street
Where folk gather, clocks tell time and trains stop
Take a horse drawn carriage on cushioned seat
Tour the streets to the sound of the clip-clop
Walking hand in hand underneath skies grey
Rugged up in warm gear but still there’s shiver
Sharing sushi on a winters day
On a bench facing the Yarra River
Eating dinner at the Crown Casino
Taking a stroll along the Burke St mall
Take a tram – so many places to go
From Richmond, to Collingwood and Westall

The weather may be shocking but why care?
For a day in Melbourne is one to share


20th May 2013

Tonight is just for us

Close the door and let in all the shadows
You. Me. Forget about the outside world
It’s within these arms that you should be held
Come to where a deep burning passion flows
Wrapped up in an embrace warm and lovely
But it’s different from last time: It feels true
If you’re so bold to show me the real you
Then I will gladly show you the real me
As bare skin touches passion runs white hot
Two pairs of lips can’t be kissed fast enough
No secrets any more. Nothing to bluff
Claim my love for you – of which there’s a lot

So much emotion burns bright in the gloom
And a flower has burst into full bloom


13th May 2013

Forever Broke

Seeing the same four walls from yesterday
One day with money for thirteen without
Will never happen again you did say
And yet there’s no end in sight for this drought

The car engine is running on empty
Can’t afford bus fare, new shoes or a snack
Saving? If only it were that easy
For every step forward there’s ten more back

Too little supply for too much demand
All for something that can’t be provided
Running on a path uncertain, unplanned
Why did you bother getting out of bed

And another day’s spent losing this game
And what’s on tomorrow? More of the same


6th May 2013

Flying

Getting ready to step up from the ground
Leaving the earth for territory unknown
For a new frontier forever been shown
It’s always been there – just needs to be found

Rise and head into the great wide open
Pushing the boundaries of where you don’t go
Where the destination is you just know
With this step the journey’s set in motion

No more chains or restrictions – now walk free
This journey’s history in the making
It’s a new world ready for the taking
What’s over the next hill? Let’s go and see

The rules have been broken, the walls tumbled
Walking proudly forward where once stumbled


16th April 2013

Abandoned School

Vandalised walls that once looked so trusting
A dim light left on for someone unknown
Sports ovals left completely overgrown
Two soccer goals overturned and rusting
Concrete slab where basketball courts once stood
Pathways going nowhere. Railings broken
Empty terrapins where words were spoken
Windows boarding up the inside for good
Locked doors where through countless students have passed
Grounds where many met, made friends, fell in love
A building with no purpose to speak of
And a skiff bin going nowhere fast

Many an education once here dwelt
Now all that’s heard is footsteps on asphalt


9th April 2013

So much to tell you

Got a lot to tell you. Where to begin?
Saying I miss you may be a good start
I can’t wait to see you, again, smiling
And how much it sucks that we’re both apart
I’ll tell you that I’m glad to have met you
And how your words warm my heart when it’s cold
I’ll tell you about how my heart beats true
And seeing your face never gets old
And how much love, to you, I want to give
If you were here I’d say all this to you
And, with you, how much I want to be with
But you’re not: So these words will have to do

I type all these words because I can’t say
But I know we’ll be together some day


5th April 2013

The Third Decayed

I wish I had a job. Full time. Good pay
Doing something that I’m really good at
You know like how everyone’s doing that
It would beat doing nothing every day

Wish I had a house I could call my own
It will best living in a basement plain
I’ll do what I like. No one will complain
It would somewhere I could call my home

I wish I had someone to give a rose
Someone whose heart speaks nothing but the truth
Hope it happens soon while I have my youth
The quest grows harder the longer it goes

I need all these things for by now I should
Before it slips out of my reach for good


1st April 2013

Science

I don’t believe in doing what genes say
Nor that I should obey some pre-program
I don’t believe that which is not my way
Nor that I have no say in Nature’s plan

I don’t believe that I’m part of a tribe
That I must find allies to mock the rest
Mixing is a dumb idea to subscribe
And enforcing that my path is the best

I don’t believe my group should be the one
That I decide what is morality
That I decide what to think, how it’s done
That who disagrees is an enemy

Because, in the end, I believe in me
Because that’s the only truth I can see


Completed: 11th March 2013

Night Chapel

Standing tall and pale against the black sky
Darkened windows, dulled sandstone and locked doors
A place where once welcomed all now looks shy
And the shadows have all come in force
Rising up, stabbing the sky, two towers
The walls are ageless – they won’t stop standing
It’s colour drained from the daylight hours
Funny: This place used to look welcoming
They say that someone is living in there
Someone who’s spent a very long time dead
But the building’s truths aren’t there to share
As the grounds are lit up with lights of red

The building exists but in its own light
Holding its own secrets within the night


Completed 25th February 2013

Two Hearts

Across the ocean a heart beats for me
It comes with a mind razor sharp and keen
As well as a pair of eyes so lovely
And the biggest smile I’ve ever seen
A heart that will pick me up when I’m down
A heart that is always thinking of me
A heart that will make me smile – not frown
A heart that, with me, where it wants to be
And I will return the heart’s devotion
There may be some risk but I just don’t care
Some might say ‘no’ – I’ll follow emotion
For, between these hearts, there’s plenty to share

Despite borders, beat as one these hearts two
For no distance can defeat feelings true


18th February 2013

An open letter to Taylor Swift

Dear Taylor – how are you going today?
Hope you are enjoying worldwide success
I write this for I have something to say
I want to be the prince to your princess
I want to be your boyfriend, your lover
Forget your past failures – I’ll be your man
Stick with me – you’ll never need another
Treat you good? Fix broken hearts? That I can
I can be the one you talk to and trust
I’ll give you gifts and love you every day
I’ll leave your previous boyfriends in the dust!
I’ll make your dreams come true – Just come my way

But hold on: I’m not famous! Such a crime
Oh well then – Sorry for wasting your time


11th February 2013

A private little Cold War

A war is being waged: one without rest
Many dollars are spent to get ahead
Seizing upon mistakes and dumb things said
Watching each move made with keen interest
Spreading dissent through spoken word and text
Make use of an arsenal of mind games
Dig dirt, eavesdrop, back stab. It’s all the same
One reason will do as well as the next
Actions are dissected to find meaning
Words are spread regardless of being true
Find allies in both camps to play for two
All for the victory they’ve been dreaming

But there’s one thing my opponent won’t see
My walk from the wall I built behind me


14th January 2013

Survival of the Fittest

I don’t want to hear of nights spent alone
I don’t want to hear of no men in sight
I don’t want trying to find Mr Right
I don’t want to be treated with a groan
I don’t want to be ground through some long test
I don’t want demands so impossible
I don’t want to be dismissed as a fool
I don’t want to be silenced with the rest
I don’t want the excuses aplenty
I don’t want say one thing, do different
I don’t want not saying that which is meant
I don’t want being told what you can’t see

So how’s it gonna be? I’ll tell you how
I want your loving and I want it now


7th January 2013

A Ghost

Her feet carried her down an empty street.
One she’d known from a time long ago
Her blank face told of a goal incomplete
But she was alone. None wanted to know
She looked up as she passed by my window
Empty eyes locking in for a stone gaze
But still they struck a wicked, painful blow
And long forgotten memories did raise
She knew me – but I had no time for her ways
She wanted to know – I walked to my doom
She offered hope but I left it ablaze
And still the empty eyes accuse. They fume.

Weight upon conscience and won’t go away
And tomorrow she will be back this way


14th December 2011

Chronicles of a Gamer (Michael Revisited)

I’m the one who walked with Link on his journey
The one Princess Zelda calls when danger nears
To Ganondorf I’m his constant enemy

I told Snake how to destroy the Metal Gears
Through me he found a sense of meaning in life
And we still meet regularly to drink some beers

I showed John Marston how to kill with a knife
With me he became a Legend of the West
And I got him back with his son and wife

I went with Commander Shepard – he’ll attest
I was with him through the Omega Relay
As everyone ‘round us gave their very best

I walked with Yuna every step of the way!
Got Ico and Yorda out of the fortress!
I’m that which makes Cyberdemons run away!

I got Samus Arun through planet Zebes!
Kefka, Loughain, M Bison, I did fracture!
Even Morrigan Aensland I did impress!

I got the Little Sisters out of Rapture!
I’ve faced down lines of relentless invaders!
Made friends with a wolf god and a space hamster!

I’ve been with Avalanche and Raynor’s Raiders!
When all’s gone to hell I’m the one they rely!
And I’m a friend of many a gun trader!

I’ve fought sand demons, zombies and colossi!
For I am the gamer and I’ve done it all
And in the eyes of my comrades, I’m their guy


12th December 2011

Go Get 'em Tiger!

Cyclone looming: Now’s not the time to run
Come on old boy, you’ve been through much, much worse!
Forget about that bullshit of a curse!
Rise up and scream a defiance of one
Forget the wounds, the blood, the scars, the pain!
Think of all those you’ve met, whose lives you’ve touched
Make them proud! Each of them counts for so much!
You’ve survived once: You can do it again!
All those twenty nine years have led to this
Do you really want to pack it in now?
It’s not worth giving into demons foul!
So why not give them a sight they won’t miss

So fight with the scars of a thousand wars
And reclaim the life that is only yours


17th November 2011

What a miserable year

Can this year hurry up and end? Like now?
It’s been the worst one yet! Like no other!
Been one disaster after another
Sure I survived it but I’m not sure how
This year was the absolute pits – It’s true!
Gave it my best shot but nothing went right!
Against the calamities I did fight
But in the end there was not much I could do
This year’s been a chain of catastrophe
Like they’re all trying to get out all at once
Too much to ask for something good up front?
You’d think it was with what’s happened to me

This year has been awful I must concede
And a fresh start is just the thing I need


16th November 2011

The Day You Went Away

This morning the sky was gone: Just clouds grey
These empty rooms of silence greet the dawn
Can’t think of anything to do today
As the suitcases in the hall are gone
Breakfast is dull and the TV boring
Go outside – for nothing better to do
Leaving the flat and into rain pouring
And with no destination to pursue
These soaked city streets are cold and empty
No one else was dumb enough to step out
There’s nothing to do and nothing to see
And the rain won’t satisfy this drought

Left behind, broken heart and worried brow
So then: What are you going to do now?


15th November 2011

Out of Time

Hours are getting shorter with each day
Growing tired and needing a good rest
Where did the last decade go? Who can say?
No fun aging – anyone can attest
Mistakes have been made and hands bloodied red
People lie cold with many a dashed scheme
Do they still want that face broken and dead?
Or has it vanished like a fading dream?
Could be bitter but really there’s no point
The world’s moving too fast. Can’t grasp the change
Gone are glory days. None left to anoint
And now the romance is sure looking strange.

Hours are getting shorter with each day
And a long sleep is but a step away


31st October 2011

Emerald

I have a dream lover – oh yes I do
She has a beauty that is stunning
Whenever she cries I come a-running
In my heart I know these feelings are true
In a dark world she is a shining light
She has a gorgeous smile on her face
With her words she makes my jaded heart race
The thought of her keeps me warm through the night
I so want for us to be together
She’s always in my heart, on my mind
But reality can be so unkind
For good reason it can’t be forever

So she must remain out of reach, I fear
Because my wife wouldn’t like that idea


31st October 2011

Dearest

I've been having some bizarre thoughts today
Like putting someone's feelings 'fore my own
Wishing someone were here when I'm alone
And whether they wonder if I'm okay
I'm having feelings like never before
But why should I worry? They won't be spurned
For I know every one will be returned
And every one has a truth at it's core
I've many words to say but there's no need
Because there's someone who makes me feel me
Who shows me things that no one else can see
I can't do without her: I must concede

Countless emotions but I won't protest
Because her hand is the touch I like best

1st October 2011

Thirty Suffering

Are you doing what you said you would do?
Are you making a living from a dream?
Recall the times you said you had a scheme?
Did any of those promises come true?
Did you imagine owning a house by now?
Did you refuse to end up a fat slob?
Did you think you’d struggle to find a job?
Have you done something to make them say ‘Wow’?
Have you really spent the past ten years well?
Did the dreams bear fruit or get left to rust?
Did reality crush you into dust?
Are you in a story worthy to tell?

Are the results of bad decisions rife?
You sure you know what to do with your life?


18th July 2011

Sound System

Surround sound coming from every angle
Bass speaker set to rumble with thunder
All for the sake of a guitar’s jangle
My planet of sound. Bow to it’s wonder
So many genre’s all within my hand.
Rock, metal, dance hip-hop, folk: Got them all
Thousands of mp3s at my command
Ready to roar, scream, rock, party and call
Ten years spent building a rock history
Forty eight gig on an aging hard drive
In this chair there’s no place I’d rather be
An immersive world that keeps me alive

The louder the better. To this I drown
Because my sound system won’t let me down


11th July 2011

Old Dog

Was my bedroom floor comfy to sleep on?
Did you enjoy keeping me company?
Did you love the pats and the hugs from me?
Did you love all those you set eyes upon?
Did the bones I gave you keep you well fed?
Did you love the walks however they came?
Even those times we got caught in the rain?
Did you understand every word I said?
Did I do much more than the best I could?
Was love never something you had to learn?
Was seeing me sad enough for concern?
Did you still love me when no one else would?

Did you enjoy those places we went to?
Did my worthless life mean something to you?


2nd July 2011

Asian couple on a Melbourne train

Two students. Late teens. Clean cut. Nicely dressed
Eyes closed, she rests her head on his shoulder
Oblivious to the drunk shouts behind her
Caring for a presence no one can best
Her black hair spills downward in a cascade
Her hand keeps a connection to his arm
He keeps her close to protect her from harm
As the rest of the world begins to fade
Existing in a world none else can touch
Forging a bond no one can ever know
For as the journey before them does but grow
Being with someone else can mean so much

Fingers enveloping into the other’s hand
In a language only they understand


20th June 2011

Twenty something lust

Flash a smile that brings to me to my knees
Could pass but why would I want to do that?
My common sense has fallen – left to freeze
But why should I heed? I’ve been knocked out flat
You don’t know how long I’ve been wanting you
This kiss tastes better than the sweetest wine
I’m not sure what’s happening – Don’t have a clue
Only you’re a glorious drug so fine
I want you bad. Anything else won’t do
Because I know you want me too my dear
So many dreams have come at once – all true
You’ve cast your spell – I embrace without fear

And it becomes clear: This is destiny
One where together both of us shall be


19-20th June 2011

Crush All Infidels

Co-existence is just impossible
Living side by side just simply won’t do
We don’t care about you. You’re just a tool
We are the superior racer. Not you
Everyone must march under our banner
Resistance is futile. Simple as that
We’ll listen to a submissive manner
Before we through you into a slave vat
We must find all threats to us by the tonne
If you are, you must be destroyed right now
If not, we must stop you becoming one
It is to our empire you must bow

It’s our universe and we’re kings of it
And we ask is for you to believe it