How am I Going to Do This?

I’ve got to get up and take on the world
Day after day after day in this life
With no instructions on how to survive
And without any support to be held
No one can see me, I must walk alone
Following rules no one else will reveal
With no clue how to look, act, speak or feel
I fail where I must succeed on my own
No one’s willing to lend a helping hand
There’s no indication where I go wrong
I need help but it doesn’t come along
So I’m left crawling whilst breathing in sand

Lead me to the rock higher than myself
Because I just can’t do it by myself


8th July 2006

Affirmation

I believe I can get through this life
That I can try my hand at anything
I believe I can face it all and win
And I won’t be brought down by any strife
I believe I can wield such strength rightly
I’ll use it for furthering my own goals
I believe I can make my own damn roles
And let no one else shape my destiny
I believe I can crush adversity
I will allow nothing to stand in my way
I believe in anything that I say
Simply because it’s right only for me

With these words I build a confidence true
So no, I will not shut up just for you


8th July 2006

Walk the Road of Damnation

Another step taken upon this road
Journeying further to oblivion
Can’t ignore the doom of destination
Carrying a forever growing load
Following plans that were doomed from day one
Cursed with a destiny never wanted
By past demons eternally haunted
With atrocious mounting by the tonne
Couldn’t change if I tried – All just too hard
Prospects of redemption are just for fools
Once a bastard? Hell, always a bastard
Always forward. Not backwards. It’s the rule

No use escaping damnation you know
So I march to the one place I can go


8th July 2006

The Succubus

She came from the depths of hell just for me
She brought along her taste for black leather
With a bust oversized and a voice sexy
And a want for me, for her own, forever
I made no complaints I simply agreed
But only upon the terms that I say
So, with her all too willing to concede
I forced her into liking anime
I showed her how to love high football scores
I taught her to play Soul Calibur 3
I introduced her to my Labradors
I made her listen to my poetry

And in the end she took my soul from me
With no protest, it was all too easy


7th July 2006

Not all of the Damned wear black leather

What a miserable life it’s been: born lame
Without the essential skills to survive
And with no excuse to be kept alive
And then came the devil to stake a claim
Got to be the bad guy: the rules dictate
Must abide even when they keep changing
Just can’t argue destiny’s arranging
There’s no escaping the ultimate fate
Sneered at for sunshine, goodness and heather
Squashed down upon for a kind attitude
Bearing an appearance that some find rude
And damnation’s meant to make it better?

Faced by the world with an eternal frown
There’s no where left to go but down, down, down


17th February 2006

Slapped in the face by the hand of rejection

I want you to see I’m the one you need
It’s just too bad that you can’t see the same
I’m a good man, surely you must concede
But I’m just a useless pawn in this game
I’ll put in the effort to make this work
But you will never know until you try
I’ll be a good man, not a total jerk
But you refuse me and won’t tell me why
If you take a chance I’ll see it repaid
But that doesn’t make me the man you want
Take me on - I’ll see that you never fade
So why does this pledge become an affront?

You now wish me luck in my search? I bet
Way I’m going, I need all I can get


16th December 2005

Susanna

The white fabric has failed as a sheathe
One by one the shirt buttons fall away
To reveal the smooth fair skin underneath

Let me into your world without delay
Simply so my one request can endure
To be with you until the break of day

Hands stroking the smoothest of shoulders pure
Demands, her smile betrays all of her
I’ve got a disease and you are my cure

The jeans slide off with a sensual purr
Because the flesh of your legs crave my touch
As I’m led on by a passionate lure

Taking your hand in mine in a strong clutch
Nothing is hidden. Everything’s laid bare
I want all of your loving all so much

Fingers drift their way through long golden hair
This is all I want to feel on this night
As we hold each other close in fervour

Lips connect guided by a passion tight
Razing defences because it's all true
Surrendering to the one word that's right

This is what I so want to show to you
So hide nothing: Let it all be revealed
And in your eyes I know you feel it too


16th December 2005

Fate's Law

Lady Destiny has a plan for me
Branded around me like string on a spool
It doesn’t matter if I like these rules
I just can’t refuse, challenge it or flee
Destiny doesn’t care if I feel sad
Or if I get nothing out of fate’s law
And to know this fact, I was showed a door
Which led to horrors that hurt so bad
Fighting to triumph? Unacceptable
Any progress made needs intervention
I must stay on the correct direction
For nothing works in the favour of fools

I must walk this road made by my better
Me liking it or not doesn’t matter

16th December 2005

Bite Me

I’m the reason people become atheists
The reason pagans are interesting
Why Scientology is so arresting
The reason why The Matrix cult exists
I’m the reason people turn to Star Wars
The reason people make their own beliefs
And turn the old ideas into a sheathe
Thus making the believers into bores
I’m made fun of because they think it’s cool
They don’t want my offer of human help
They would rather beat me until I yelp
And cast me into their big box of fools

But even though they hurl words so unkind
Nothing they say will make me change my mind


26th November 2005

Snow

The pure white snow tumbles down from the sky
Standing barefoot in the landscape of white
Clasping the reddest of roses so tight
As the moon shines it’s light down from up high
The heartstrings are singing the sweetest song
Opening up to see the other’s soul
Fingers interlock. Two becoming whole
Been waiting for this moment for too long
In a love that defies both space and time
Both floating with feet that don’t touch the ground
The passion tastes the satisfaction found
As the bells of Heaven begin to chime

And as the sky casts down the cold, cold snow
The light within the heart begins to show


6th November 2005

Ma reddition douce

Stroking, through hair golden, the finest skin
Counting eyelashes around eyes so blue
Kissing lips trembling with pure emotion
Whispering tender words achingly true
For both of us, years of waiting are done
The reward has come so lets make start
Years of patience fall for triumph well won
To savour every minute with this heart
Let all the pent up emotion run free
Give me everything as I give you mine
Make this surrender as sweet as can be
Bring an end to the desire you pine

Lower your defences, pull them all down
Only my princess deserves this gold crown


18th November 2005

The Politician

You know what? I want to lead this country
Seems anyone can do it – why not I?
I reckon I could do a great job, see?
They won’t know unless they give me a try

To begin with, I’ll hand out equal rights
To the voice of the people I will concede
I’ll stand tall as the boss - I won’t start fights
I’ll give the people the hero they need

I’ll increase funding to schools and welfare
I’ll help the workers in getting ahead
I’ll make jobs for unemployed everywhere
I’ll work as hard as the next man for bread

I’ll recall armed forces from foreign lands
I won’t back down in foreign relations
Forget the ego, I’m a simple man
I will never use intimidation

But as I eradicate corruption
My allies will think I’m drunk with power
They’ll sell me out in the name of disruption
And abandon me when it all goes sour

Then the hero will die –become a tool
My views will become stuff of mockery
My opinions will be words of a fool
I’ll on my own with no one to save me

My kingdom will collapse through betrayal
I’ll be made into the fool that I should
Persecuted for a crime, I must fall
For trying to change the world for the good


18/11/2005

Desperado

The hour’s drawing near. A man’s gotta do.
The ultimate destiny calls this soul
And on this day, the hell shall continue
On a road that’s as twisted as it’s goal
Standing onto two feet but not giving ground
An outlaw eternally on the run
Stealing and hoarding what gold can be found
And scoring notoriety by the tonne
There is a reckoning coming today
A thirst for vengeance has arranged this path
Believe it: There’s gonna be hell to pay
Someone will die and he’ll the last laugh.

Pray to whatever god you believe in
It’s not on your door that he’ll be knockin’


18th November 2005