So you wanna know what it's like to be single?

I have a mouth but no voice to speak with
Ironic when I have a lot to say
I have arms, the long not returned to give
A shame no one's come to take it away
I have eyes to see happy couples smile
Enjoying things I'll never get to do
I have a brain of illusions and guile
Struggling to keep alive a dream that's true
I have a heart - One of the broken kind
And I have a hole that needs to be filled
But this planet is ignorant and blind
Thus, it's the end of my world I now yield

But why would you care about today’s news?
You have no idea what it's like to lose


9th February 2003

I don't want any friends

I don’t want friends. I just don’t care at all.
I’ll go into my room and sit on the shelf
Material objects stretch from wall to wall
But I don’t care. I’m in love with myself
I’m a genius of the elite kind
Who cares if no one else acknowledges it?
Nothing compares to myself and my mind
So it’s my way or no way. Get it?
I do have friends - Them I abuse and taunt
But the truth is, they’re not friends. Just a lie
I’ll keep on being mean. I won’t get caught
I will never learn cos I don’t see why

Don’t give me change. Don’t give me friends
I want this to stay until the world ends


3rd February 2003

Fear of Ghosts

What'd I do to deserve this wretched fate?
Why must you make my life a living Hell?
Why must your voice keep ringing like a bell?
Why am I the target of all your hate?
Yes I did kill you many moons ago
But you tormented me as you do now
And your motives were unclear - You played foul
And I sank into a pit so low
Cast from society I hid away
From the sin I so wanted to forget
But last night I awoke in a cold sweat
You came back to haunt me for every day

A fear of ghosts makes guilty conscience loom
A ghost is here to drag me to my doom


4th August 2002

Revenge

I am myself, you are many and one
You keep kicking me, making me deranged
But today it's all going to change
I'm gonna break my rusty cage and run
I am going to squash unjust pain
I will reject you as you rejected me
I will elude your dark grasp and live free
And without me, you'll never be the same
What did I do to deserve this? Tell me
You don't know do you? That you cannot tell
So when I'm done casting you into Hell
I will leave you burning, laughing with glee

For me there is a promise of a new day
For the burning pain, I have made you pay


4th August 2002

Love will tear us apart

I decided to cheer up yesterday
A revelation that worked all too well
And then sunshine came in a blazing ray
The world should know that I've burst from my shell
Life was great until along came a prick
And then, in a very poor choice of words,
Said my happy mood was making him sick
And my smiling was load of dog turds
In that instant, time came to a standstill
My new found joy fell and smashed on the floor
My happiness was that the prick did kill
And then, I didn't want to smile anymore

I went back to my shell and misery
With nothing but a faded memory


12th June 2002

Rebellious Youth

I won't listen to my parents anymore
Because I have found a brand new teaching
I will heed to the Sex Pistols' preachings
I've dared to open the forbidden door
Blame for this goes to a society
A society locked me in a cage
And then it watched me kick and scream in rage
Thus it is them I defy with great glee
I will keep my room as neat as a pin
I will go to church on every Sunday
I will disdain cars and walk on my way
My stereo lets out a classical din

A rebel has emerged out of the mass
If you don't like it you can kiss my ass


25-27th December 2001

Eros

Don’t you know you owe me you little prick?
You should know me. Or did you forget that?
Am I just nothing to you? A mere pratt?
I came to you yet you gave me the flick
Are you laughing up there in La La Land?
Yeah? You know, you shouldn’t laugh at this clown
Because I am coming to bring you down
I swear that you will die by my own hand
Your ignorance has made me declare war
I demand a rematch. You. Me. Today
I know my weapons. I will make you pay
For a wound which remains forever sore

Today you will die. Vengeance is indeed sweet
For the times you left me out on the street


14th November 2001