Finocchio the Magnificent

Wearing a battered suit and shoes jaded
He sat on a bench with nowhere to go
With a suitcase bearing letters faded
From a circus that closed down long ago
Underneath red clouds and a setting sun
Eyes red, teeth crooked, he sits all alone
With magic tricks that were second to none
And an intelligence that’s now unknown
He’s not a freak. He’s a friendly Merlin
And there was a time when he made laughter
But he got left behind – the truth’s burnin’
As he lights a match for his last sparkler

With suitcase in hand, he went on his way
To go and find a place where he could stay


14th December 2004

Going home

Stumbling home on a Saturday night
Car lights flash and roar past our awkward feet
Finding our own way down this empty street
In a darkened world bathed in orange light
Smelling of beer, leaning on the other
We both know this song! Its words we’ll shout out!
Can’t recall what we were fighting about
As we walk, hand on each other’s shoulder
We won’t stop moving. Even if we could
We don’t care how much noise we make out here
Or whether we will make it to next year
Still, life may go on but this life is good

Tomorrow brings changes but we won’t see
Because on this journey, it’s you and me


14th December 2004

What do I have to do?

I’ll forgive you if you do something wrong
I’ll console you when you are feeling down
I’ll make you smile brightly when you frown
I’ll serenade you with the sweetest song
I’ll call you regularly up on the phone
I’ll spoil you for you are my sweetest sin
I’ll be someone you can place your trust in
I’ll never, ever leave you all alone
I’ll embrace you whenever I’ve the chance
I’ll protect you from any evil fiends
I’ll tell you when you appeared in my dreams
Yes, I’ll do anything you call romance

But in the end my pledging makes no sense
When I face a wall of indifference.


14th December 2004

Meine Mutter

When I was sick you helped me get better
When I was weak you urged me to strive
When I needed a shoulder you were there
And, above all else, you kept me alive
Whilst teaching the skills needed to survive

And you should know from the man who's your son
No one could do the job that you have done


6th December 2004

I fell in love with a girl

Challenging establishment. Taking heat
Make a suggestion. Walk without your fear
I open my mouth. It all becomes clear
There’s someone here I would like you to meet
I don’t want to lose. I want to come first
Are you serious? You must be joking
Stand in the corner. Continue choking
And now the Heavens are about to burst
A thousand white lilies fall from the sky
Your eyes are blinded and I have no voice
Worlds come tumbling down. Idiots rejoice
And a bright red rose shrivels up to die

So tell me now: Where from here do I go?
When she replied with but a simple “no”?


6th November 2004

I hate my life and I want to die

Nobody understands a word I say
To them all my words are utter nonsense
Nobody sees things in quite the same way
Instead, they’ll just slam me for being dense
No one shares the same interests as me
They don’t have a clue what I’m on about
I talk - they nod their heads receptively
Do they see my passion? I have my doubts
They all see something that’s beyond my gaze
They all know something to which I’ve been slack
They won’t tell me the road out of this maze
Instead they’re all laughing behind my back

So remind me why I follow the sham
Of always being proud of who I am


6th November 2004

Cloud

All the angels in heaven are weeping
Sending their tears to the blue world below
Tears that hammer down outside my window
And the pain of losing you keeps seeping
Now and forever it’s you I still love
Regretting the silly things I did say
Even if they all came out the wrong way
As a grey cloud bursts in the sky above
The rest of the world’s disappeared from view
And your absence is driving me insane
Come find me standing alone in the rain
And in my love and my heart I’ll drown you

Listen to me when I bring forth this plea
My love, I want you to come back to me


6th November 2004