The View from the Friend Zone

I would like to raise my glass to a toast
To the potential left unrealised
To when one’s courage was cut down to size
To those who know which feelings hurt the most
To those who know what others just won’t see
To those who play by the rules and don’t win
To those who knock but are never let in
To those who be what they can never be
To the beautiful flowers that don’t sprout
To progress locked in a permanent halt
To the effort that yielded no result
And to the prison that has no way out

So here’s to a pursuit blind, deaf and dumb
And vindication that will never come


Completed: 4th May 2014

Manifesto of the Determined

My one and only option is success
When my back’s to the wall, I won’t be beat
I’ll achieve something that isn’t defeat
And I won’t settle for anything less
With each and every step I’ll give my all
I’ll tell the obstacles where they can go
Forward is the only way I need to know
I won’t stop until I’ve achieved my goal
I won’t waste time. I will not halt my stride
When things are looking grim I will not crack
I’ll return stronger from any setback
And any nay-sayers should run and hide

Made for me, I will grasp the destiny
Because it won’t keep on waiting for me


14th April 2014

Living Together

Walking home under the same umbrella
Letting her pick out, for me, some new clothes
Helping dealing with an eBay seller
Finding out we like the same TV shows
Having someone watch me play console games
Debating on whose turn it is to cook
Having her people skills to match my brains
Off my shelf; Finding her picking a book
Seeing a YouTube clip that makes us laugh
Singing the same song on the radio
Having together time sharing a bath
Indulging in a bond only we know

Making up a nice hot chocolate for two
Because these are all things that couples do


24th March 2014

Manifesto of the Unhappily Single

I have a goal and I will reach for it
No matter what anyone else may say
To find a life partner I will commit
And nothing’s going to get in my way
I shall become one of the lucky few
I will deem all rejections offending
I’ll have a partner to worship so true
I’ll claim my own fairy tale ending
I will force the world to see my appeal
To this one truth I will make them succumb
I’ll embrace an idea as strong as steel
And determination deaf blind and dumb

But what I want is someplace to call home
Because I just don’t want to be alone


Completed 24th February 2014

Confessions of a Loser

I’m a freak who has no right to exist
I’m the finest dreg of humanity
Even when it’s otherwise I tell me
Escaping this fate? I should not persist
I’m unemployed and unemployable
I inspire people to run away
And for what reasons? They simply won’t say
I only trigger excuses so cruel
I’m a dull, direction lacking, ugly
Forever broke, status quo offending
Nothing but hopeless, not worth defending
Desperate, pitiful, monstrosity

But there’s something for me, you need to do
I need you to know: I have feelings too


27th January 2014

Untitled (I)

She rings up to tell of a new boyfriend
This being her seventh phone call this week
His greatness: The only thing she can speak
And it doesn’t seem clear when it will end
Apparently they do much together
Go shopping, buy gifts, do lunch, take photos
Introducing her friends, watch TV shows
Has he let her down completely? Never
Making very clear this good thing she’s got
He fills her up with happiness so true
With him she does things that we used to do
This I’m told whether I like it or not

I’m happy for you that you’re doing well
But can’t you find somebody else to tell?


25th November 2013

Early Morning Departure

Woke up at 4am but she did not
Got clothes and shoes on just like it was planned
A kiss on the cheek. A squeeze of her hand
For I will be missing her a whole lot
Sitting in a dark room on a suitcase
An airline ticket in hand, held tightly
Phone rings. Head outside and into taxi
As I’m driven away leaving no trace
As I journey I think of her, so fair
No doubt she is still sleeping peacefully
What will she do this weekend without me?
What will she do when she finds I’m not there?

But no matter the distance love won’t wane
And I know we will be together again


11th November 2013