Crucifixion

Nothing will ever again be the same
None but I know of the pain inside
And from the rest of the world I will hide
As I can’t bring myself to face the shame
I scream my lungs out but without a sound
While I sit in an empty room friendless
And gone is my last chance of happiness
All is lost, everything has turned around
One careless whisper, one simple blunder
They won’t listen, no matter what I do
They persecuted me for being true
Leaving my world lost and torn asunder

I have been filled with deception and lies
There’s little left to do except close my eyes


10th December 2000

Message to an Ex-Girlfriend

So it’s come to this. This is where it ends
Your actions were wrong to leave me this way
Thus, farcical is your idea to be friends
You know, I would’ve done anything so you’d stay
We are alike in what we think and do
But as you don’t listen I talk to walls
My affection was me saying I loved you
I believe you don’t care about me at all
You told me you’ve had a terrible past
I would’ve made things better. Couldn’t you see
I did everything I could to make it last
But sadly you didn’t do the same for me

Despite all my affection you have flown
Yet I don’t deserve to be so alone


10th November 2000

One Man can start an Avalanche with the Casting of a Pepple

She came into my life when I was blue
And she gave me happiness and sunshine
After waiting for so long this was a sign
My heart simply melted when she said “I love you”
Suddenly walls fell and I saw the sun
With her there was so much to do and see
And those crap love songs now made sense to me
Make no mistake, she was the number one
She understood whatever I would say
In my paintings and poetry she’d appear
I felt warm and comfort when she was near
She made me happy every singe day

Yes, things were going great in this romance
Then along the twat in poofter pants


9th November 2000

Match Made in Heaven

You are a hentai - perverted and proud
I'm reserved in this mortal coil
You are young hyperactive and quite loud
But I am quiet and yet quite loyal
You're in High School and four years my younger
But I am an adult and in Uni
A river divides us. A Heart's hunger
For a grown man and a female looney
You are a dominatrix I am half mad
I keep throwing life lines - You remain true
You seem to be carefree but I am sad
A match made in heaven? I think so too

We are mismatched but we stay together
And so, for that, I will love you forever


2nd September 2000

Remembrance

Remember when you said you loved me?
Do you remember what we did that night?
Do you remember when we felt so free?
Remember when we held each other so tight?
Ah yes. I do recall it very well
We walked under a starry starry night
And then into each other’s arms we fell
And then we kissed in the pale moonlight
On that night we said we loved each other
We were both seduced by the other’s charms
And we had found love for one another
As we captured the other in our arms

I do recall our date with destiny
There we forged a future for you and me


2nd September 2000

Love

I love you and no one else besides you
All your personality and your charm
If you take my hand I will get you through
I will make sure you do not come to harm
How I would love to kiss and touch your face
I do not care what other people say
O, the thought of us in intimate embrace
I wish you were here with me today
I don’t care if you’re mean. Just come with me
Just a day with you is eternal bliss
If you really love me then you will see
I love you too - Said with a lover’s kiss

I really so passionately love you
I will never break your heart - That is true


First version: 17th October 1998
This edition: 30th July 2000

I think I'm in love

It has begun: the world has stopped turning
Many a cold shiver runs down my spine
The fires in my heart have begun burning
All has turned upside down. It is a sign
A tsunami of sweat runs from my hands
Everything crumbles. The bubble has been burst
Images disintegrate into sands
So I hang on and prepare for the worst
Boredom has consumed me in this darkness
But I don’t give a rat’s arse about you
It just happened this afternoon, this mess
And it would appear my feelings are true

I think I’m in love. That must be it
But boy is it making me fell like shit


This edition: 30th July 2000

Alexandra

So many doors but only one offers hope
Many doors are opened but not the one true
Never-ending journey. One I can’t cope
I open up a door and then you stepped through
At long last my eternal search is done
My angel is here. I shed happy tears
And I will shine on for she is my sun
I ask her: “Where have you been all these years?”
Sweet music and magic come when we kiss
And the way we hold each other’s hand tight
And when I am with her it is pure bliss
And her beauty shines through in the moonlight

I found you after many a broken heart
I so love you and may we never part


20th July 2000

Gave up gave in

No I do not seek a soul mate anymore
That’s it. It’s over. It’s come to an end
Go. Leave me. Go away and close that door
On me and my efforts to find a friend
You know they say all the world’s a stage
But the season has run out for this clown
He leaves despite all the sorrow and rage
The audience yells abuse. He stands down
Yet all is not well that doesn’t end well
But still I am glad I gave up. I am smart
As before, I’ll go on and leave this hell
No way am I in a bond that falls apart

Girlfriends are not the way out of this mess
I’ll just sit here and rot in this darkness


18th June 2000

Last Chance

Shall we speak today or speak tomorrow?
Will we ever see each other again?
No. Never. Quite possible not.
But then…..
Last chance to speak to each other?
Yes. So….
Your reactions to me aren’t like the rest
My madness you seem to find amusing
Hasn’t happened before -
Interesting
You don’t regard me as some kind of pest
My chances to speak with you failed
True
Did I tell you all I had to say?
No but then tomorrow is another day
Or is it?
Will I remain ever blue

So will we speak again in time?
Maybe. And then everything will be fine


28th May 2000

Bad Parents

Both the parents left to go to dinner.
They were gone for some hours. That’s what they did.
However they left with minds of sinners.
They wanted to get away from their kid!!
His screaming drove them mad so they both fled.
Silence they were after. And they got it.
Pleased with peace and quiet and no sore heads.
They forgot all about the little shit.
Meanwhile the kid never left his room.
Scary nightmares made him cower in fright.
Totally scared he sensed impending doom.
With no parents he won’t get through the night

The parents went away to have some fun
And the frightened kid waited for the sun-


?? September 1999

I hate my writer's class

This is a writer's class. All is not well
Sure I get to say what I want to say
This hole is the equivalent of hell
"We are going to write poetry today"
Says a teacher who demands better stuff
We go to work and then read read what we've done
A scary guy says life is very tough
A half dead girl talks about being gone
A total nut talks about destruction
Some stinker spends his time bagging losers
An irritable speaks his observations
A giggling bitch talks of hunky boozers
A blonde reads her work which leaves mine for dead
As feelings of failure invade my head


?? September 1999

Tragedy

Two houses both alike in dignity
In fair Hobart College we lay our scene
Through ancient grudge break to new mutiny
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean
My friends will not betray me or kill me
That's what I believe. Therefore I have none
Wimps attack the lone sheep. That's plain to see
I was bombarded - equal to a tonne
Bullets fly rapidly. Into my heart
Evil grinning faces. They laugh. They lear
Looking forward to a brand new start?
No chance! I'm hated becuase I'm in fear

No ending here of this story of woe
Sadder than Juliet and Romeo


?? September 1999