Last day of the year

It’s with little surprise that it’s raining
And everything around is coloured grey
Many clouds have stopped the sun from shining
Telling us one thing: Today is the day
Many things have been accomplished this year
Things which are now a faded memory
Thus as the time of awakening grows near
Our human hearts and souls are left empty
The streets are vacant and the shops are sealed
There’s no smiling faces out on this day
But it’s the road - with engines it is filled
Because everyone is moving away

But in all this barren devastation
We wait for the day when we’ll rise again


16th February 2003

So you wanna know what it's like to be single?

I have a mouth but no voice to speak with
Ironic when I have a lot to say
I have arms, the long not returned to give
A shame no one's come to take it away
I have eyes to see happy couples smile
Enjoying things I'll never get to do
I have a brain of illusions and guile
Struggling to keep alive a dream that's true
I have a heart - One of the broken kind
And I have a hole that needs to be filled
But this planet is ignorant and blind
Thus, it's the end of my world I now yield

But why would you care about today’s news?
You have no idea what it's like to lose


9th February 2003

I don't want any friends

I don’t want friends. I just don’t care at all.
I’ll go into my room and sit on the shelf
Material objects stretch from wall to wall
But I don’t care. I’m in love with myself
I’m a genius of the elite kind
Who cares if no one else acknowledges it?
Nothing compares to myself and my mind
So it’s my way or no way. Get it?
I do have friends - Them I abuse and taunt
But the truth is, they’re not friends. Just a lie
I’ll keep on being mean. I won’t get caught
I will never learn cos I don’t see why

Don’t give me change. Don’t give me friends
I want this to stay until the world ends


3rd February 2003

Fear of Ghosts

What'd I do to deserve this wretched fate?
Why must you make my life a living Hell?
Why must your voice keep ringing like a bell?
Why am I the target of all your hate?
Yes I did kill you many moons ago
But you tormented me as you do now
And your motives were unclear - You played foul
And I sank into a pit so low
Cast from society I hid away
From the sin I so wanted to forget
But last night I awoke in a cold sweat
You came back to haunt me for every day

A fear of ghosts makes guilty conscience loom
A ghost is here to drag me to my doom


4th August 2002

Revenge

I am myself, you are many and one
You keep kicking me, making me deranged
But today it's all going to change
I'm gonna break my rusty cage and run
I am going to squash unjust pain
I will reject you as you rejected me
I will elude your dark grasp and live free
And without me, you'll never be the same
What did I do to deserve this? Tell me
You don't know do you? That you cannot tell
So when I'm done casting you into Hell
I will leave you burning, laughing with glee

For me there is a promise of a new day
For the burning pain, I have made you pay


4th August 2002

Love will tear us apart

I decided to cheer up yesterday
A revelation that worked all too well
And then sunshine came in a blazing ray
The world should know that I've burst from my shell
Life was great until along came a prick
And then, in a very poor choice of words,
Said my happy mood was making him sick
And my smiling was load of dog turds
In that instant, time came to a standstill
My new found joy fell and smashed on the floor
My happiness was that the prick did kill
And then, I didn't want to smile anymore

I went back to my shell and misery
With nothing but a faded memory


12th June 2002

Rebellious Youth

I won't listen to my parents anymore
Because I have found a brand new teaching
I will heed to the Sex Pistols' preachings
I've dared to open the forbidden door
Blame for this goes to a society
A society locked me in a cage
And then it watched me kick and scream in rage
Thus it is them I defy with great glee
I will keep my room as neat as a pin
I will go to church on every Sunday
I will disdain cars and walk on my way
My stereo lets out a classical din

A rebel has emerged out of the mass
If you don't like it you can kiss my ass


25-27th December 2001

Eros

Don’t you know you owe me you little prick?
You should know me. Or did you forget that?
Am I just nothing to you? A mere pratt?
I came to you yet you gave me the flick
Are you laughing up there in La La Land?
Yeah? You know, you shouldn’t laugh at this clown
Because I am coming to bring you down
I swear that you will die by my own hand
Your ignorance has made me declare war
I demand a rematch. You. Me. Today
I know my weapons. I will make you pay
For a wound which remains forever sore

Today you will die. Vengeance is indeed sweet
For the times you left me out on the street


14th November 2001

Always Be Mine / An Ode to Venus

Come live with me and I’ll protect you
I’ll come and rescue you from any harm
And I’ll shield you within my loving arms
I’ll pick you up when you’re feeling blue
Goddess of Love - You deserve the name
Why does your love life blow up in your face?
Why is there a dark side behind your grace?
It’s hard to believe that you hide such pain
But it’s true - Such emptiness you hide
And it scars your wondrous beauty too
But I’ll take you, and kiss and love you
I’ll take you to light and crush your dark side

I am here still, even if all is gone
Let me rescue you so we can be one


2-3rd November 2001

The World Gave me Apples and I made Cider

My rocket-powered squirrel just blew up
My Ferrari is radioactive
My pet lemming has found a will to live
Clouds are floating out of my coffee cup
The Cheshire Cat is chanting out a curse
My pet lamb has dynamite up it’s arse
My private Idaho is now a farce
And the situation just couldn’t get worse
The ugly ducking is drunk and on crack
My bunny has mixamotosis
My kitten vomits up mess most grosses
The dog is painting my bedroom door black

And tomorrow, me and my motley crew
Will flush the Queen of Hearts head down the loo


1st June 2001

Two lovers are fucking up above me

Two lovers are fucking up above me
In their apartment they roll as one
As they commit their dirty deed with glee
And they won’t stop until the night is done
As they express their love with much passion
Lose virginity or risk going stale
Meanwhile their sounds come downward crashin’
Any attempt to blot out their sounds fail
The sounds of their love burn me to my soul
They burn, I burn in emotional fire
A terrible emptiness takes it’s toll
The sounds won’t end. The sounds will never tire

I listen and the truth really does hurt
They make love, I have my face rubbed in dirt.


28th May 2001

Vengeance is a dish best served cold (The Hillbilly song)

I went to the countryside with my wife
I took her to the greatest farm around
All the while I had the time of my life
She, however, just wouldn’t settle down.
She cheated on me. An act most unkind
I don’t know why but she had her reasons
Next thing I knew, I must’ve lost my mind
I planned to execute her for treason
So I dragged her screaming into the barn
And I rammed my shotgun to her forehead
Lie-tainted screams echoed across the farm
But they didn’t stop me shooting the wench dead

Now I’m in jail - which is just as well
Nothing can stop me from going to hell


22th April 2001

Broken Circle

Once upon a time foundations were set
To build what will endure the test of time
But now this wonder’s demise has been met
It’s long gone now - covered in moss and grime
Back in it’s heyday, this place was a home
Everyone was happy, day after day
A haven for a wanderer alone
But the sun has forever gone away
The black souls have flown - Gone to pastures new
Leaving a lone wolf howling at the moon
The pure minds search for their destiny too
As an eclipse illuminates the gloom

The circle is broken, all have parted
And now the wolf is back where he started.


8th March 2001