Summer evening

Hand in hand, gazing at the evening sun
Away from the world on this hillside
A sense within me inspires me to run
And spend that freedom with you by my side
I’ll give it up for your smile and your eyes
We’ll be together. You won’t be denied
I want the pleasure to see and realise
There is nothing left to lose when you’re beside
Your voice whispers in my ear words so wise
Makes me forget the chaos in this world
Forgetting what I know for it’s all lies
Because I would rather see this love unfurl

You welcomed me in to become a part
So I won’t give up on this pure, golden heart


29th December 2004

I made a deal with the devil

I met a man who knew my name on sight
He showed me a world which I hadn’t seen
He said there’s a place for me in this dream
There’s no strings attached for this path is right
From that point on, reality crumbled
I was welcomed into this green garden
I ate all the fruit without a pardon
And on the road that is life, I stumbled
Order blinked in disbelief at this man
“How could this have happened?” I hear them say
Laughing out loud, my friend’s now run away
This left me swelling the ranks of the damned

And now I’m left in the cold on my own
Oblivion awaits for those alone


28th December 2004

Sesshomaru stole my girlfriend

My girlfriend doesn’t want me any more
Cos she’s become an Inu-yasha freak
She keeps watching the show week after week
And it’s Sesshomaru she has eyes for
She hopes he’ll kick Inu-Yasha’s head in
She maintains he was framed for his past crimes
She wears lovely dresses for the right time
All she talks about is that damn demon
He will use anyone to get his way
She says that task was what she was born for
I say he hates humans and will kill her
But she says she’ll gladly throw her life away

Sesshomaru is her life she insists
One can wonder if she knows I exist


28th December 2004

My sister in law

You will marry my brother? Is this true?
It’s hard to grasp the words that have been said
Thus I didn't know what to make of you
Cos’ your arrival was unexpected
It only took a nice word to be said
Hidden heart of gold, you managed to pry
And in time, I grew to like you instead
I have no reason to hate you or lie
I haven’t done this role before but I’ll try
You like cartoons and chocolate ice-cream too
I’ll say you have the sharpest shopping eye
Thus this newly formed bond between us grew

And now, you're more than worthy of my trust
Because in the end you're now one of us


Completed 27th December 2004

Battling the Elements

The rain thunders down, the wind keeps blowing
Upon us miserable travellers three
Soaked to the skin with each step we're going
My companions look for answers in me
I sceam defiance, my frustation growing
But the weather rages relentlessly
Battered, drenched, we march with teeth gritted tight
We move towards eventual respite


27th December 2004

O Holy Night

O Holy night, Twenty-fourth of December
The local church is ringing out the last bell
It’s the birth night of our lord and saviour
In a time of peace and love all is well
Lazing back in the couch with beer in hand
As this little town lights up behind me
Together with all the rest of the clan
Curtains open, feet up, watching TV
We’re all here for the holiday season
Recalling each and every song we know
We don’t fight, argue or call out treason
We’re just watching the bond of family grow

All watching the carols by candlelight
And all together for the holy night


25th December 2004

Finocchio the Magnificent

Wearing a battered suit and shoes jaded
He sat on a bench with nowhere to go
With a suitcase bearing letters faded
From a circus that closed down long ago
Underneath red clouds and a setting sun
Eyes red, teeth crooked, he sits all alone
With magic tricks that were second to none
And an intelligence that’s now unknown
He’s not a freak. He’s a friendly Merlin
And there was a time when he made laughter
But he got left behind – the truth’s burnin’
As he lights a match for his last sparkler

With suitcase in hand, he went on his way
To go and find a place where he could stay


14th December 2004

Going home

Stumbling home on a Saturday night
Car lights flash and roar past our awkward feet
Finding our own way down this empty street
In a darkened world bathed in orange light
Smelling of beer, leaning on the other
We both know this song! Its words we’ll shout out!
Can’t recall what we were fighting about
As we walk, hand on each other’s shoulder
We won’t stop moving. Even if we could
We don’t care how much noise we make out here
Or whether we will make it to next year
Still, life may go on but this life is good

Tomorrow brings changes but we won’t see
Because on this journey, it’s you and me


14th December 2004

What do I have to do?

I’ll forgive you if you do something wrong
I’ll console you when you are feeling down
I’ll make you smile brightly when you frown
I’ll serenade you with the sweetest song
I’ll call you regularly up on the phone
I’ll spoil you for you are my sweetest sin
I’ll be someone you can place your trust in
I’ll never, ever leave you all alone
I’ll embrace you whenever I’ve the chance
I’ll protect you from any evil fiends
I’ll tell you when you appeared in my dreams
Yes, I’ll do anything you call romance

But in the end my pledging makes no sense
When I face a wall of indifference.


14th December 2004

Meine Mutter

When I was sick you helped me get better
When I was weak you urged me to strive
When I needed a shoulder you were there
And, above all else, you kept me alive
Whilst teaching the skills needed to survive

And you should know from the man who's your son
No one could do the job that you have done


6th December 2004

I fell in love with a girl

Challenging establishment. Taking heat
Make a suggestion. Walk without your fear
I open my mouth. It all becomes clear
There’s someone here I would like you to meet
I don’t want to lose. I want to come first
Are you serious? You must be joking
Stand in the corner. Continue choking
And now the Heavens are about to burst
A thousand white lilies fall from the sky
Your eyes are blinded and I have no voice
Worlds come tumbling down. Idiots rejoice
And a bright red rose shrivels up to die

So tell me now: Where from here do I go?
When she replied with but a simple “no”?


6th November 2004

I hate my life and I want to die

Nobody understands a word I say
To them all my words are utter nonsense
Nobody sees things in quite the same way
Instead, they’ll just slam me for being dense
No one shares the same interests as me
They don’t have a clue what I’m on about
I talk - they nod their heads receptively
Do they see my passion? I have my doubts
They all see something that’s beyond my gaze
They all know something to which I’ve been slack
They won’t tell me the road out of this maze
Instead they’re all laughing behind my back

So remind me why I follow the sham
Of always being proud of who I am


6th November 2004

Cloud

All the angels in heaven are weeping
Sending their tears to the blue world below
Tears that hammer down outside my window
And the pain of losing you keeps seeping
Now and forever it’s you I still love
Regretting the silly things I did say
Even if they all came out the wrong way
As a grey cloud bursts in the sky above
The rest of the world’s disappeared from view
And your absence is driving me insane
Come find me standing alone in the rain
And in my love and my heart I’ll drown you

Listen to me when I bring forth this plea
My love, I want you to come back to me


6th November 2004

It's hard being a man

I have to have a job and a fast car
I need a thousand dollar weekly wage
I have to look like someone half my age
And have big muscles bursting all over
I have to spend time with my family so dear
And keep feeding them every single day
I also have to have a sport to play
And I also must drink lots of cold beer
I must know my car is my only deity
And I’m not allowed to learn how to cook
I must never, ever, act like a sook.
So I can’t give a hug or have a cry

This modern world just doesn’t understand
Just how damn hard it is to be a man


25th October 2004

Gabriella's Dream

Dark trees in a darkened word. Candle flame
Freshly fallen snow. A white dove croons
The sweet scent of roses. Walking through gloom
Guided by voices beautiful, she came
Shattered clock. She had forgotten her name.
Sheets of white silk. The light of a blue moon
A broken music box plays out a tune
She opened her heart for it to be tamed.
She undid her robe. The moon turned to glass
Closing her eyes. Smiling with ecstasy
Throwing her head back. Falling through the night
Lying on the snow. Breathing out short gasps
Remaining there, leaving no print, she lay
Until the arrival of dawn’s first light


25th October 2004

A powder keg of contradictions

I love life, the beauty of this planet
Yet I hate all the morons around me
I’ve a huge hoard of anime DVD’s
But I’ll never be a fan idiot
I am a recluse and a quiet one
But when I get excited, I bellow
I’m indeed keen to get out and have fun
Yet I’m also, quite frequently, mellow
If needs be, I will gladly stand and fight
Yet I abhor all forms of violence
Distinctions change. But I couldn’t care less
About the difference between wrong and right

“The point of this poem?” I hear you speak
Well buddy, I’m just proud to be unique


22nd October 2004

Hurrah for junk food!

There’s nothing like that pleasurable feeling
Of filling one’s cakehole with so much salt!
I won’t listen to you preaching the faults
This is one sin that won’t leave me reeling
The constant consummation of fried chips
The lovely meat and sauce of a burger
And with me Dim Sims will also go far
It’s all granted stomach entry by my lips
Who cares ‘bout the fat when it tastes so good?
It’s a world apart from what Mum gives me!
This food is the king of pleasures guilty
Consumed once in a while - as it should

Although it’s not good to eat this stuff daily
I relish this joy when it comes to me


22nd October 2004

She's gone

The grocery bags are in the hallway
In a place where silence is deafening.
There’s nothing on the TV worth viewing
And it looks like it’s gonna rain all day
The clock declares the hours ticking by
The dishes are piling up in the sink
There’s a stain on the tablecloth so pink
I look out the window up at the sky
Now there are no more questions left to ask
Who wants to know whatever’s on my mind?
Who wants to see me being left behind?
Who cares? There’s nothing left in which to bask

The groceries are still in the hallway
And it looks like it’s gonna rain all day


21st October 2004

Sunday night

Well here we go again, into the breach
To my weekly battle I’m off to fight
It’s always the same, every Sunday night
I walk paths where the goal is out of reach
It’s me versus my constant enemy
Who only comes out during this one time
It’s on my frustrations he will dine
The demon of insomnia wants me
He wants to fight – Not to hear me snoring
This week won’t bring a change. He wants to keep
Me as far away from my treasured sleep
And I’m left a wreck on Monday morning

I won’t win – He’ll add to his winning streak
And it all will begin again next week

10th October 2004

The morning of the Defeatist

This morning demands I get out of bed
But today I don’t want to leave my room
From this safety I refuse to be led
Because outside is where no flowers bloom
The outside world is utter anarchy
A place of eternal conflict and war
There’s hunger, pain, suffering and cruelty.
It’s where nice people are left bruised and sore
Therefore, I’m not gonna bother at all
True: I don’t feel like taking on the world
I’ll stay in my bed – safe within these walls
And ignore the world as chaos unfurls

I will stay here underneath these blankets
And of the pain, I will try to forget


7th October 2004